Monday, September 27, 2004

Growing Old

I remember in my more youthful days,  I thought I would fight aging at all costs. I would protect myself from further sun damage, go under the knife if I had to, moisturize, nip, tuck, mask and chemically peel any and all signs of aging and rid myself of every gray hair. I think most traumatic for me on aging ...............is watching my hands grow old.

But with age comes wisdom and reflection.  I have learned what is most precious to me..... it is my life with my Husband. I knew from the very moment I saw him, I was going to marry him, birth his babies and that I wanted to spend the rest of my life growing old with him.  In viewing all my signs of aging now, I see that I am accomplishing that desire. Gone is the youthful glow on my face and in its place are small lines and a few well earned wrinkles. Gone is the shimmer of my once summer blonde hair and gone is the smoothness of my hands........... But he says he still see's the girl and that he will love me through all time.

All I have to do is to look upon my Mother's face to see future glimpses of me, I have mirrored her image since my birth. I only hope to capture her grace as I age. I will still pamper my skin and color my hair for vanity's sake but I will also remember with every new laugh line, every new gray hair on my head..... means I am living my wish......... to grow old....... with my love....... my Husband.

8 comments:

mzgoochi said...

Aww, this entry is so sweet, especially your husbands comment to you about growing old. Give him another big hug for me and say thanks for being a big ole sweetie with a heart of gold.

blueyesofawolf said...

 I love what you have to say about aging.  I'm 41 and totally agree with everything you have to say.  My husband tells me that I'm still the young woman of 17 that he still sees.  BluEyesOfAWolf

kimbellina1957 said...

KIM, I DONT EVEN NEED A JOURNAL, YOU ARE WRITING IT FOR ME RIGHT HERE IN YOURS. LOL!!
I HAVE BEEN GOING BANANAS TRYING TO FIND THEEEEE MAGIC LOTION FOR MY HANDS BECAUSE THEY ARE AGING SO FAST IT SEEMS. :) ISNT IT FUNNY THE THINGS WE NOTICE ABOUT OURSELVES THAT OUR HUSBANDS DONT THINK ANYTHING OF WHEN THEY LOOK AT US?
KIM.

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lrttklly said...

This entry reminds me of a visit to a "spa" about 2 years ago. The hair stylist offered to color my grays...and I told her, "Absolutely not! I have earned every single one of them." The secret of aging gracefully is to surrender the things of youth. That leaves you free to embrace all the beauty of our later years. You go girl! :) Loretta
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carolhehe said...

oh my gosh! My hands stick out to me too! Especially after one of my boys pointed it out to me a few years ago. Now I look at my hands and see veins poping out and nothing but lines an wrinkles. Waaaaaaa! I still moisturize and color for sure!

ebonygrl3 said...

This is a very beautiful and heartfelt entry. Thank you for sharing this. God Bless

sdoscher458 said...

That's a beautiful statement of love...my hubby says that's the reason men's eyesight starts to fade abit, they only see their original vision of you in their mind...He says that but of course he has the same 30" waist as when I married him! (Double Dam it).....Sandi...http://journals.aol.com/sdoscher458/LifeIsFullOfSurprises