OK, I just realized something.....I'm not liking my voice on this AOL by phone thingy.....great another thing to be unhappy about! LOL.......first my nose, then how extremely uncomfortable I am about having my picture taken (all my life) and now my voice??? LOL .....So I deleted the entry.
I wish life came with a delete button sometimes......think of all the possibilities! Hmmmm!!!! Ü..... Well, the now deleted audio entry was about the results of my recent cat scan......It showed enlarged lymph noids in the left side of my neck....I'm thinking hmmmmm what am I supposed to do with that information, because that is all I got...that and a referral to a specialist. See Kim run to google....see Kim search enlarged lymph noids on google.....see Kim breath a sigh of relief that there are 56 reasons (besides cancer) that can make a lymph noid enlarge.
I feel I have been walking on eggshells for the last 2 days with all this new information and I've been a bit cranky! I've been short tempered and I have snapped at my Kids and my Husband (Poor Husband! And he thought PMS was bad and he already has a fear of the "M" word (menopause) So I have been trying to make amends with him and the kids so I thought hmmmmmm....... maybe I have upset someone out here in J-LAND and I should also apologize here too.......So If by chance, I have offended anyone please forgive me...it was not intentional....I only wish to offend those that I want to offend which is usually directly and with good reason! LOL
The weird thing about this whole journaling concept is I am basically a very private person, I have shared things here that I would never share with people in my everyday world.......I only give up information easily if I think it could help someone else so I am thinking that's why this journaling is so easy for me, I hope I am reaching out to the people that need reaching out to and they can somehow relate to a topic I have shared or a moment I have shared and get a lil something out of it. I know there have been other people who have helped me in ways I might never know with them sharing pieces of themselves with me.
I have found that journaling, the act of writing things down has taken the burden of carrying things around with me away.....much like prayer...sending it out there to mull around and find answers to.....and that has granted me a certain amount of peace about many things I have carried around.
Life is good and I am thankful!
7 comments:
Hey Kim, I had cancer before so when I get swollen lymphnodes, I panic! But, Like you learned in your search, just about any kind of illness can cause them. I even get them when I have a bad cold or an infection. I hope it's nothing serious and you'll be in my prayers.
hugs
Lahoma
oh, and another thing. Why don't you like having your photo taken? Girl, you're beautiful!
I find it good therapy too. It' all the benefits of talking something over without the responsibility of involving someone else
.somehow the audio entries just arent the same to me.
I hope you get good news from the specialist.
do keep us posted.
Marti
Writing in a journal is like the conversations we have on a plane or on an elevator...there is something about the brevity of time that makes one cut to the chase. How therapeutic it has been to find total strangers such as yourself concerned about liitle old me...you have truly stimulated me to try harder...to begin again.. to rethink my attitudes!
I agree that you possess a movie star quality...look very self-assured! We can fool 'em can't we? cmp
Hang in there. I'm sure everything will turn out fine. We do have to remember life is good. :)
Michele
I love the fact that you share ur good days as well as ur bad makes the rest of us know that we arent alone on those days when heads get snapped abd heads roll and we mean known of it i have those days as well and my hubby and sons are so glad i have ppl like u to talk with and share things with. So hey if ur having a bad day or a bad week VENT thats what we r for...........Robin
I've had swollen lymph glands many times. You will be fine. It is so worrisome, though, isn't it? That is why journals are such a haven.
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