Tuesday, July 26, 2005

Journal Jar #71......Here comes the Bride (5)

So without saying whether I would or would not marry him, I calmly said to Jim, "You have a lot of proving to do for me before I can give you an answer either way.......If you want to marry me then you are going to have to plan everything, I am done planning our wedding, you make all the arrangements and tell me where and when to show up and I will let you know then if I still want to marry you or not.....But if you think I am going to say a word of this to anybody you are sadly mistaken and I am not getting rid of my boyfriend!" I walked a very quiet man to the door and said my goodnights. This is how August 1, 1990 ended.....what a night!

I decided to I needed a break from the both of them.....I ended up spilling my guts to my sister and a few of my close friends, they all just shook their heads, gave no advice, just shook their heads........I seemed to be stuck in a real life soap opera.......I'm not fond of soap operas! lol

Jim called me August 7, 1990 to tell me we were getting married the next day, he took care of the arrangements, we were to be married at 1:00 p.m. the next day......he didn't want to wait any longer. I said,"I'll meet you there" he said, "No I will pick you up!" I said, "No I will meet you there!"  I'll believe it when I see it.......I just didn't trust what was really happening......I had my hopes and dreams of marrying this man crushed before....I still wasn't ready to get rid of the boyfriend....I didn't believe for a minute that I was actually getting married the next day!

I heard from both Jim and John that day.......I still didn't want to see either one of them, I had a lot of things to think about so I finished work early and headed home. I spent the night watching old Disney movies with my daughter.......she still cried at the same part in Dumbo when Dumbo gets led back to his mother who is now confined and chained to a circus wagon.....and I still cried during Cinderella when she finally found her happily ever after......I still wanted the happily ever after.

Sleep didn't come easily and when it finally did...........I had another mystery date moment.......Good Lord! Which one was it now??????

Yup...you guessed it.......continued!


sunnyside46 said...

well, i can't stand the suspense!
anyone want to take a poll?

rap4143 said...

OK this is better than my soap operas LOL.  I hope you figure your life out and which ever direction you go, you will have a happy life :).

nelishianatl said...

I can't wait to hear the rest of it.  You've kept me hanging.  Now, I want a boyfriend, darn it.  I'd just be happy with a date. By the way, I started my journal again.  Please add me.  I'm still WISHING AND HOPING.

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plieck30 said...

Ever thought of submitting your love life to Truestory Magazine? Do they still print it even? Paula