Wednesday, April 4, 2007

Just words trying to find meaning.....

Cancer you are the tears
that just rest on the edge of my eyes
My stubbornness refuses
to let them fall .... but
you are the reason I do lose
it, when I speak of my children
you are so cruel to those that love me.
You are the reason
my Husband has no words
and I hate you for that,
how dare you try to take me from him!
You are the breaker of
all  hearts who love me
You are the thief
vying for my life
You are the one
who steals hopes and dreams
You are the one
I am mad as hell at!
I am slowly gathering my
strength once again
this is to be my fate.
Even though you are still here
you will not beat me!
I may get ill, I may be defeated
and I may die, but hear this...
You will never steal me
from the hearts of those who love me
not even you have that kind of power.



kmh 2007

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fight on my friend

Anonymous said...

Expressed so beautifully...I am crying for you...keep your faith! I refuse to let it go for you!  I will believe in the power of prayer!!! HugsTerryANn

Anonymous said...

WOW!!
This is very powerful.
MISSY

Anonymous said...

Strongly put, Kim, and well written. Keep going!

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Anonymous said...

Keep it up. You inspire the rest of us.
Christina

Anonymous said...

Wow...that is incredibly powerful.  Keep fighting!

Hugs,
Nancy

Anonymous said...

You are in My Heart and there you will stay for always Kim.  A beautiful poem which tells it as it is.  I am with you in Spirit and I pray hard for you too.  God Bless you and your family!   Jeanie

Anonymous said...

Wow, that is beautiful. You are a great writer. Take care,
Trish

Anonymous said...

Don't give up! There are people who have SURVIVED cancer in the lungs also!!!!

Anonymous said...

With your permission I would love to Copy & Paste this with a link to your journal in my blog. If not that is okay to. I just want you to know this is powerful and you will beat this again, last time was practice for this time to bepermanant GOODBYE!!!!
Hugs
Ang

Anonymous said...

Kim, you never sease to amaze me. That was beautiful. Love and peace to you, Bill

Anonymous said...

That came straight from the heart!
Very well said Kim....
Big Hugs!
~Terri~

Anonymous said...

Very well said....

Michele

Anonymous said...

hello....I read your blog everyday....today..your entry about your husband struck something in me....my Dad,,,survived brain surgery, intestinal disection...renal failure..one lobe of his lung removed because of lung cancer..then Alzheimers struck...he was a fighter...like you...then a year ago they discovered he had brain cancer...we all fell apart for a time..not him..he talked openly about his fear of dying...and he was dying..he had been given 3-6 months....his saddness that he would have to leave us...I took a leave of absence and moved in with he and Mom...took care of them both...and in the wee hours of the mornings when it was just he and I..he talked and talked...maybe it was the Alzheimers...that allowed him to lower that wall that all men have..he talked about his life...things I never knew about him...the regrets that he had..and he had few..his biggest regret....that he hadn't spent more time with my brother and I when we were children...and that he had showed more love..that amazed me..because one thing I always knew for sure in my life...was that my Dad loved and adored us...he talked about dying...about missing birthdays...Christmases..watching his great grand boys..grow into young men..and not knowing them....he shared ever fear he had....every joyful moment he was feeling...it was hard to listen to at times...it was heartbreaking...CONTINUE.....

Anonymous said...

but those moments are moments burned in my heart...they are so precious to me......in 31 days he was gone....I look back at how brave he was..how hard he fought...but most of all I think of the courage it took to bare his sole...to weep...to express all those thoughts....and how blessed I feel to have shared that with him...to think that it was me that got to hear it all...to be the one to comfort him...and to be his strength when he needed it...I'll always be so thankful to him for that...it IS hardest on those left behind...you know that...I know that...for me those moments with my Dad.....somehow make it easier....he left so much of himself with me...I am praying for you...your a fighter...KICK cancer ass!

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Anonymous said...

Your words have incredible meaning, Kim...  All that you feel has deeper meaning than many of us could ever know.  You are in my heart and in my prayers.

Warm hug,

Michelle

Anonymous said...

NOW THAT MY DEAR ONE, IS THE VERY SPIRIT OF MY HERO!
NOW KICK IT'S ASS! :-)
LOVE YA,
CARLENE

Anonymous said...

A very strong and emotional piece of verse Kim. I know you're going to fight this demon. Jeannette xx  

Anonymous said...

so strong and sad.  i wish the horrible disease had c ure and could be wiped out forever.  
hugs
noelle

Anonymous said...

powerful verse.  hang in there and keep fighting!!
gina

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Anonymous said...

you are so brave
that is a beautiful poem
marti

Anonymous said...

That  was very good. That made me almost cry.