"You gain strength, courage, and confidence by every experience in which you really stop to look fear in the face.... You must do the thing you think you cannot do."
If someone would have told me how at some point in my life I would have to dig deep and overcome things that I never thought I could overcome..... I would have never believed them.
I don't like to be sick, when I was sick before BC (Before Cancer) I sure did whine and complain about it. I have always been on the feisty side so nothing ever kept me down for long, but I remember thinking I didn't think I could handle anything sicker than a flu or something. Often I hear from people that don't think they could be as strong as I am in the face of dealing with cancer once and then quickly again...I never thought I would be able to be this strong either...I thought I would whine and complain and whoa is me and lock myself up in my room and wait for death to come claim me. That quote above holds the truth.....Now if this was Jim (everybody knock on wood!) I know I would crumble and die...but it's me and I love him so very much so I am not about to give up and abandon the life and love we have for one another. Nothing would be sadder for me to have to walk along my path in life without him by my side...I could not even imagine going 10, 20, 30 or 40 more years without that man.....not even a day.....and I now that he feels the same way I do....So he is my drive, my strength to get through what I have already been through with cancer and chemo and what I still have in my path ahead of me.
Many nights we lay in bed face to face, looking into each others faces and talk about our life together....past, present and future and we have more conversations in the dark about important matters than I think we ever do by the light of day...maybe that's because life gets busy during the day and we don't have time for those kind of moments...we have the kids to deal with, and he works extremely hard to provide and give the gift of me being able to stay home and raise our own children... we have a full social life that keeps us busy and very happy....so it's those times in the dark that we have those moments....those conversations...the time to tell each other how happy we make one another.
He has given me the perfect life...."My" perfect life...there is not anything that I am lacking, Iam spoiled rotten, have been all my life and he knew that before and he married me anyway! lol He spoils me more than I ever was before and I adore him! I remember there was a time when all the guys were giving him a hard time about just how spoiled I really am and even though they meant no harm by it, he felt the need to "Check" them.....he told them she is the most important person/thing in his life, why wouldn't I want to see her happy? I make Kim happy because I can and because I love her and she gives back just as much.....that kinda made them re-evaluate their own marriages and how they very rarely put their own wives first...and it shut them up for good! lol...as just two people we are far from perfect, but we are perfect for each other and that's all that matters!
My Philosophy on a good, strong marriage has always been...I put him before me and his needs are met and he puts me before him and my needs are met.....both of us are looked after and taken care of and loved immensely for doing so....works for the both of us! Ü
I am a very lucky woman to have that man at my side, but I think many of you who know me very well....also know that I would have never settled for anyone less than My Jim!.....I'm sucha stinka! lol lol lol