Wednesday, April 4, 2007

Talk about closing a door then opening a window...life is amazing isn't it??

First of all my pity party for one had been canceled......NEXT!


I have to admit, I have been kinda free falling since my surgeon called to let me know that cancer has been found in my lung now....I am fine one minute, then scared the next, I have to many things I need to say that my loved ones aren't ready to hear. I know I would have a hard time hearing these things but they still need to leave my head via my mouth...it will give me some of my power back.

I had those words with my Darling Jim at 4:00 o'clock this morning...I figured the darkness would hide what he has been hiding from me for a few days now....his fear, his pain in possibly losing me...he can't even talk about this, he's too afraid he will break down in front of me and you know all that manly stuff.....just not allowed! I couldn't bare to witness his heartbreak anyway.....so we both were hiding something in the dark of night.

Well, I just ran across a new blogger, dealing with the same illness I am and she IS just what I needed....she is strong (like me) slightly not right in the head (like me! lol) and uses her humor to warrior through this pain in the ass cancer that is all wrapped up with a pink ribbon.

You see when even the toughest begin to struggle, something or someone is placed right in the middle of their "here and now" and a life rope is handed to them ( I hope that I have done this for others as well)....a new can of whooooop Ass! Please stop over at her blog and take a read and introduce yourself....
The Uniboob Club Even the name of her blog sends me flying into the chits and giggles!



Oh Cancer?? I am ready for round 2 now! Oh, and by the way.........."Momma said, knock you out!"  lol lol lol

25 comments:

knowwriter said...

You are the reason why I am walking in the Breast Cancer 3-Day Walk. Your journal helps to remind me of why I am doing this.
http://journals.aol.com/knowwriter/AmazingAdventures/
Nicolle

s0ngbird1962 said...

I've been reading your journal for awhile now, (just couldn't bring myself to comment) I came across it quite by accident a few months ago.  But maybe there are no accidents?  My Mom was diagnosed with lung cancer in December....the fight is on, and like you, her spirit and courage is nothing short of amazing.  ....Amazing grace.  

Many prayers for you as you continue your fight.  Your strong spirit, humor and positive attitude will help you get through this, no doubt....  

http://journals.aol.com/s0ngbird1962/HeyGoditsmeMichelle/

sjnunn340 said...

U go girl!!!!!! Knock it outta the park

Hugs

Stacey

rdautumnsage said...

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ajquinn354 said...

Kim, glad you had your talk with Jim, know it's not easy on you or Jim or the kids, but know you'll get through anything with your love, faith and upbeat spirit.  This was just a diagnosis, nothing more, believe that you'll get through this, so many others have.  Read the other journal, see's a strong woman just like you did, you were meant to find her journal....take care.....Bless you dear....Arlene (AJ)

pharmolo said...

Back to form, I notice. Well done, Kim, keep going. It's a hard road to travel, and blimey, instalment 2 isn't half scarey. But, you're doing fantastic!

scotthlori said...

Atta girl!!

LORI

astaryth said...

You GO girl... and I'm on my way over to 'Uniboob Club"... I LOVE that name!
http://journals.aol.com/astaryth/AdventuresofanEclecticMind/
http://adventuresofaneclecticmind.blogspot.com/

gandsbrock said...

Awwww, I didn't even get a slice of cake!  Fine, we'll just have to think of another kind of party...I went and visited the other blog.  Love her!
Stephanie

princesssaurora said...

You will conquer it... I can feel it in my bones... prayers coming....

be well,
Dawn
http://journals.aol.com/princesssaurora/CarpeDiem/

nhd106 said...

I'm happy you found her!   You will most likely find lots more of kindred spirits to help you along your journey...

Hugs,
Nancy

chevyz71gurl74 said...

So glad you and Jim had that much needed talk...
I so agree with you about something or someone being dropped into your life when you need them the most...When i was struggling with the fact of losing my aunt Judy to this ugly C word....and didn't quite know what to say or do...or even grieve for that matter..that is when i met you, Trish, Riss, and Faith...and for that i am forever grateful...because through you girls i have come to a better understanding of cancer...and i see just exactly what my aunt Judy went through ~ and things she may have thought....but never revealed to us....not wanting us to worry about her(as if we wouldn't anyway)....through you girls i feel that much closer to my Aunt Judy even though she is in heaven now...and i want to Thank you from the bottom of my heart. I am going to check out the Uniboob Club now...hehe  She sounds like a very kewl chic!
Love and Hugs,
Terri

puckerpouts said...

Kim, Your spirit is priceless!! Your fingertip's flow with what lie's within your heart, I never had that, I sure wish I did.... when I turn my computer on here is where I now run, my daughter's were my only support system and they were 12 and 13 at the time and were dealing with what was to come to them, the lost of their mother, they were my strength and I know this but something was missing and I now know what it was and I thank you for that. You are a voice for so many women!! I'm sitting here having a pity party LOLOLOL, omg I haven't cried about "C" in a long long time and you know what? It's ok that I do! Thank you Kim!.. keep on keeping on....Amanda

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tendernoggle said...

I KNEW THE WARRIOR WOULD BE BACK! LOL
LOVE YA,
CARLENE

stupidsheetguy said...

That's all I keep thinking: cancer isn't very smart, to try and outfight you again. I look forward to many years of journal entries from you.

I think, though, that I will very carefully avoid making you angry :)

Jimmy

missy92980 said...

Hey Kim?     ... welcome back.

ovrtrainbo said...

You are am amazingly strong woman, you go girl, get out there and kick some butt, you will beat this!  We are WARRIORS and we will beat this, look at how many are walking today, 5 years free.  I will keep in touch with you, and I encourage you to blog daily it's healthy woman.  I am sorry for the pain in having to tell the family, oh how I can relate.  You take care and write anytime.

rayne1123 said...

i will be praying for you.  my mom had cancer 2 and most of the woman on her side have had it as well. not all have survived.
prayers heading your way
hugs
noelle

kidzmakeucrazy said...

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lmitc89854 said...

Be strong! My sister was diagnosed with lung cancer and she had surgery last fall and they removed it all. No other treatments for her. Blessings to you and may the same thing happen!

randlprysock said...

You are going to get through this and you are going to win!  Hugs,
Lisa

wippo292 said...

i love what u wrote and it almost made me cry

sunnyside46 said...

always mind mama
Marti

jerseygirlphotos said...

Oh no! I'm sorry I missed these entries, be strong and be mad and kick that cancer out of your body.