Monday, April 23, 2007

Sure do have ups and downs...to be expected I guess! lol

What a beautiful weekend we had here in Chi-Town! Friday night I had a dinner date with my Jim and he was back in town by 3:00 p.m. I thought I was going to fall apart in his arms but we just held on to one another and looked into each others eyes for awhile...he has the most beautiful green eyes! We had an early dinner and then decided while we are out to go ahead and get a new dryer...our old one lasted almost 15 years (Kenmore Sears) it was time to replace it anyway...while we were at Best Buy we picked up a couple DVD's...one a my favorite all time older funny movies is "The great Outdoor's" With John Candy and Dan Akroyd....between Jim, the kids and me we must of watched it at least 3 times over the weekend...I still laugh in all the same places I did when that movie first came out! lol

Saturday I was struggling quite a lot...I am beginning to cough a lot now (normal for cancer in the lungs) I also lose my breath occasionally now too...I thought I would try to "FAKE" it and go out to the lake, but with every conversation tears would well up all around the campfire and it just got to the point where I couldn't be around people...unfortunately we only had one car out at the lake and I didn't want to stay...I wanted to go home and get in my bed....Jim was out on the lake fishing with my BIL...I knew he needed to have some "I don't want to think about cancer anymore" time and I am sure my BIL also told him if he needed anything to lean on him...they have been best friends since I started dating Jim and my Sister was still dating Steve. So I climbed into my truck and fell asleep...Jim felt so bad when he came off the water, but I know he needed that time on the lake...he brought me home and tucked me into bed at 8:20 p.m.....I know I'm such the party animal lately huh?? lol

Sunday I woke up in pain, I really didn't want to do anything but spend the day in bed sleeping (it's quite the escape when one needs one) but Jim talked me into breakfast and I had 2 cups of coffee and was ready to take on the world instead of taking to my bed! Yeah me!!! lol So out I went to the lake...what a beautiful day...took a ride out on the pontoon with the girlzz which we call the "Booze Cruise" since many of them where hung over and I was not, they were drinking bloody mary's and I was drinking pomegranate juice....I did have a beer much later in the afternoon while I fished (and caught nothing off the dock! lol) I am sooo glad I changed my mind about going out instead of staying in!

Thank you all for your thoughts and your prayers and your best wishes and for those of you that have been reading me for awhile and finally introduced yourselves...every comment left is like a great big ole hug and who doesn't like hugs right???? I am supposed to have an early dinner with another group of girlfriends...I am a bit wiped out today but I'm trying the coffee thing again and hope I get the energy to do so!

Tomorrow I start chemo again....I have an appointment early in the morning so if I am able I will do a quick entry when I get back.

Love to you all!

Kimberleigh

43 comments:

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inquestoftruth said...

((((Kimberleigh))))))   reaching across the cyber waves for a big ole cyber hug.    so wishing you didn't have to face this....but WOW!   How you face it!    If attitude is even half of the battle, then you already got it licked!    Will be praying for you tomorrow....  
~Meg

chapjopapa said...

what a great weekend yall had. and there will be many more. the road may be bumpy, but if anyone can do it, it's you. grab life by the horns. and enjoy every minute. it seems as though this "little" thing called cancer doesn't have a chance with you. our warrior. we are all behind you 100%. praying for you! Jo

thegirlnexdoor77 said...

I will be thinking about you and praying the chemo goes well for ya....stay strong girlfriend!  Big  gentle hugs and prayers!  Hugs,TerryAnn

mpnaz58 said...

You are so thoughtful...always putting others before yourself!  I hear pomegranate juice is really good...maybe not over a bloody mary, but a beer chaser...thats a new one!!  Take care...
xoxo ~Myra

momiscool2 said...

HUGS to you Kim! I'm Michelle from Isthismylife blog.
I will keep you in my prayers.
Love,
Michelle

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mariebm56 said...

You are in my thoughts & prayers constantly~
{{HUGS}}
Marie

ginabommer said...

everyday i read your journal... and right before i do i get this sick feeling in my stomach.... i am so worried about you... i have just been through this lung cancer thing with my mom.... i have been praying for you and you are always on my mind... i have a very dear freind that owns four restaurants in chicago... one is on navy peir... they are all wonderful places... if you are close to any of the four..i would love to send you and jim out for a night on the town.... email me and let me know..... keep your chin up.... and kick cancers ass!!!!!!!!!!!!!! love, gina

canyonsun04 said...

That weekend sounds beautiful, I was picturing the lake!!! Mailing your stuff tomorrow, to let you know we are all behind ya!!!

Hugs & Love
Ang

happysunshien said...

love you. hug you. and thinking bout you this morning.

kelly

lisa41076 said...

Kim, I love that  movie The Great Outdoors, You will be in my thoughts tommorow, Hugs Lisa

ajquinn354 said...

Kim, glad you got away and enjoyed getting out and fishing and time at the lake.  Know it's not easy with all you are dealing with right now dear, but Jim will be there as are all your family, friends and j-land folks giving you support.  Your one special lady to all of us let us know how we can help even if it is long distance.  Think of you always Kim, we used to live in the Chicago area, south of downtown, a town called Richton Park right off of Highway 30 and 50 which is east of Joliet. Will look for your next entry, take care, hang in there. Bless you....Arlene (AJ)

gandsbrock said...

I love The Great Outdoors.  John Candy is so funny.  Yeah.  I guess you're gonna have your down times - but it sounds like you were able to pull up out of it.  Fishing on a dock is good for the soul.  :-)  Praying for the best when you start chemo tomorrow.  Hugs,  Stephanie

s0ngbird1962 said...

(((Kim))) You have an amazing spirit, I'll be thinking of you tomorrow and add you to my prayers....    

madcobug said...

Hubby and I love the lake but ill health has kept us away during the best season for crappie fishing. Glad that you enjoyed your time on the water. Helen

princesssaurora said...

I am praying for you... a lot.  You are my strength... Everytime I start to get beaten down by what is going on... I think of how you are an amazing warrior!

I am glad your weekend ended on a good note...

be well,
Dawn
http://journals.aol.com/princesssaurora/CarpeDiem/

xomywayox said...

What is black, white, & red all over???? A blushing Zebra!!! My nine year told me that one. I just had to share it with you.

I'm Fedex'in some Huggs, Wishes, and  Fairy Turds your way!!!

Love Brenda  

molly146012 said...

Kim,
Sending {{{{{{{{{{{{HUGS}}}}}}}} and Prayers and Sunshine your way today.
wanted you to know I was thinking about you....from one of your readers.
Love, Molly :)

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deshelestraci said...

Glad you got out there and went to the lake.  It sounds like something most normal people would want to do...go back to bed.  Good for you for getting out there and having fun.
Traci

dplkjl said...

You better not say things like, "a comment feels like a big 'ol hug' to me because I will end up sending 100 comments to you in one day!  I am glad for your happy moments this weekend and wish that I could take away all the pain -emoitionally & physically.  Hope chemo goes as good as chemo can possibly go tomorrow, YOU WILL BE IN MY THOUGHTS!
-Kelly

cste609371 said...

Sending a big hug from New England! I am so glad is so much strength for you. You are a wonderful couple, God bless. Cheryl~

http://journals.aol.com/cste609371/writingsshortstoriesbyStewart/  

lanurseprn said...

I love that movie "The Great Outdoors" also!  I never tire of it!  Glad you got out on the lake. What a refreshing thing to do!  Good luck with the first chemo treatment.  Will be thinking of you as always.
Pam

hsauls said...

LIVE LIFE TO THE FULLEST GIRL! Enjoy every minute... drink it up...
*huge hugs*
heather

sunnyside46 said...

give it all you got, friend
I love you
Marti

pharmolo said...

Keep going, Kim. Can't they give you something for the cough?

rbrown6172 said...

i love the way you talk about your jim!  he is such a rock in your family.  i'm so glad he talked you out of that bed and you had a good day.
gina

tendernoggle said...

You are doing great Kim...I am so happy that you were able to fish a little! Ounds like you enjoyed your time in the "Great Outdoors" too! lol I too loved that movie!
love ya,
carlene

wickedpink64 said...

Kim, in the words of Bon Jovi....you gotta live while you're alive and sleep when you're dead! Good luck with the start of treatment - I hope the side effects aren't too harsh this time.

Hugs

Wendy in Oz

psychfun said...

So glad you got out & about. Amazing how much a hot shower can do for me...and my students. My pain goes away when I have fun with them. Laughter is the best medicine...and research does prove the benefits.

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missy92980 said...

Yay for the weekend on the lake! I'm so glad you got to go out and enjoy yourself! HUGS to Jim for his role in your good weekend.  Hugs to you for the hell of it!!!  :D :D :D

TTYL... Missy92980

thinkingoutloud said...

Kimberleigh,

I've been reading you for some time now.  Originally I came to your journal for your quick wit and attitude!  

I have come to admire your inner strength.  Or should I say 'envy' your ability to deal with your illness.  You are so full of love for your husband and family, and worry about them, instead putting them before yourself unselfishly(sp?).
They are some very lucky people to be in your heart.  

You have managed to keep your humor through all this.  I truly respect you as a woman.  I truly feel you are my friend and I am so proud to know (of) you.

Love n prayers 4u,
Niki

beadingaround said...

   Hi!  My name is Lisa I am 41yrs.  I read your journal.  I am sorry to hear about your cancer.  My finacee has staqe 4 liver cancer.   He is half way through his four months of chemo.  You really sound like you have a good attitude about it. I think that is the key to beating it.  My financee is really angry.   The doctor didn't tell him that his cancer has come back in his liver.  I found the cat scan report going through his medical records for another purpose.  The cat scan was in May 2006 and we didn't find out until December 2006.   So, he lost alot of time without being treated.  I wish you the best of luck with your breast cancer.  If you want to e-mail  back my e-mail address is beadingaround@aol.com.  I 'll keep you in my thoughts and prayers.    Lisa

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chevyz71gurl74 said...

Hey Kim!
So sorry it has taken me awhile to get here....i'm not getting your alerts for some reason =(  I am so sorry to hear the cancer is back... I will keep you in my prayers as you face this journey yet again... You are a warrior and you will kick cancers ass again my friend!  I am so glad you were finally able to go to the lake for the second time and actually enjoy it... I never catch a thing when i fish...but it is fun and relaxing... especially with a few cold drinks ;)  Thinking of you!
Hugs,
Terri

inafrnz247 said...

With all that you endure, your words are still always so uplifting, Kim.  You have a strength and a will in you that I do believe there is NOTHING you cannot do.  And with that hubby of your's beside you, well... that's just pure magic.

I hope you are feeling well this evening and that smiles heavily outweigh the frowns.

HUGS,

MIchelle

irenemaeclark said...

Easy on the booze girl......just work on getting healthy to the best of your ability.
Take the hand of The Man who can lead you in the right direction.

swferstl said...

If you're going to at least TRY to get a hangover (1 beer), it's always better OUT of bed...'cause ya know you'll just end up there anyway when you DO get one!
Glad you had fun! hugs, sher