Sunday, April 8, 2007

Such a stubborn girl! lol lol lol

Last Monday when I got the news I immediately called Jim and asked him to come home....he was home in 30 minutes. During that 30 minutes I let a few tears slip, I called my closest girlfriends to let them know the results and I called my Mother.....none of them handled it very good. My one GF, Judy who is a 3.5 year lung cancer survivor (Yeah girl!) had a tumor the size of a lemon and they removed that portion of her lung and only gave her radiation. They told her at her last check up when she asked how come chemo was not an option for her they told her that they have made great strides in Lung Cancer since then and that if she was to be a new LC patient chemo would be a definite. My tumor is only the size of a nickel....piece of cake right!!! lol I am still holding my breath just a little because if the cancer has already spread to my lungs from the breast...just where else did it escape to? The PET Scan I had on Friday will answer that. So here are the scenarios....

It's just in my lung, in that one spot and it is my ER/PR positive Breast Cancer (Same kind Elizabeth Edwards had) and can easily be treated again with chemo, shutting down my ovaries with that new shot they have so I no longer produce estrogen and feed these blasted tumors that keep forming and/or just a simple surgery to remove the tumor and then some radiation. So it could just be surgery or surgery with chemo (again) or surgery with chemo and radiation. Either way it's nothing that I can't handle right?? Truly BEEN THERE DONE THAT! lol lol lol

Now of the PET Scan shows it has spread to other areas then it will be a whole new ball game. Am I up for the treatment? When you want to live you have no other choice but to give it all you got and warrior through it! In my heart I do not think this is the death of me...but since my cancer is so very aggressive (#3....that's tops on that scale) it's tougher to treat and keep in remission.....that's totally obvious now that the cancer still made it through 4 months of chemo, but then again so did I!!!

Good thing I am a stubborn Irish Woman huh? lol lol lol


And another thing happened that Monday..remember I went out with some of my GF's? Well, On the highway there was a SUV on it's side and they were using the jaws of life to extricate the occupants...even though I was told that afternoon that my cancer was back I still knew someone else was having a worse day than me at that moment....there is always a bigger picture and something to humble you by.

32 comments:

brandyp0509 said...

Kim you have a truly wonderful attitude about this and I truly believe that is half your battle.  You and the family are in my prayers!  Hugs, Brandy

chat2missie said...

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gosso23 said...

Kim you can beat this! I know it.  You are surrounded by so many people that love you. Happy Easter!
Trish
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katie39041 said...

Your positive sides shines through. You are in my prayers and thoughts
Katie

wickedpink64 said...

That's always been my motto "you can always find someone worse off than you"! Sometimes its the only thing that gets me through the day - it works!  I think if you can find something positive in even the worst situations, you are gunna come out a winner!

Hugs

Wendy in Oz

rbrown6172 said...

wow!  what a stubborn irish gal!!  lol  yes....i love that fighting spirit i see in you, kim.  my prayer is for your strength, courage and faith to stay strong.  God bless you this Easter day.
gina

scotthlori said...

You are such an inspiration!!

LORI

ginabommer said...

i have been praying the rosary for you everynight..we pray at bedtime for you... i know that you will be ok.. you are strong... you have fight in you... my mom had to go... it was not the lung cancer that took her.. she died because she could not let joey go without her... she decided against chemo... she didnt even have any scans to see were it had spread.. she would not eat.... she gave up..... you are a fighter kim!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! you will be ok....love, gina


deshelestraci said...

Man, you have some spirit.  I know it can always be worse, but it is pretty bad!  Keep smilin'.  It sounds like you have a great support group of friends and family.  
Traci

astaryth said...

{{{Hugs}}} You just amaze me!  Happy Easter!
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chaispice1023 said...

you are one spunky woman.  you GO, girl!  we're all pulling for you.

happy easter!

thinkingoutloud said...

The fact that you are such a strong person aka hardheaded woman, you have the power in you to get thru the treatments(whatever they may be), and that is 1/2 the battle.
So as I see it you are ahead of the game.

Have a peaceful day,
Love n prayers-
Niki

thegirlnexdoor77 said...

I love the way you always turn things around as you head into  battle...keep fighting and keeping the faith and I will keep praying!  Hugs,TerryANn

pharmolo said...

Happy Easter, Kim. Keep your chin that high!

olachiaclan said...

You just keep inspiring me. Happy Easter Kim!
Christia

psychfun said...

Oh yes now that is the spirit! :-) I totally agree on keeping the perspective. And thanks for the reminder for me. Happy Easter! A day of miracles, renewal of spirit & love.

dplkjl said...

You amaze me in the best of ways!  You may get down (totally understandable) then if we give you a few minutes, you come back fighting harder than ever!  I love it!  I can not imagine how inspiring you will be when you get to claim victory!  And you will someday, I have no doubt about it!  -Kelly

candlejmr said...

Happy Easter to the woman with unshattering faith...no matter what curve balls life throws.  When do you get the results of the PET scan?

((hugs))
Jeanne

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plieck30 said...

Kim you remind me of the little engine that said "I think I can" ."I think I can" "I know I can". I know you will try your best. I hope you are spending this Easter day with your family. Paula

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shoot4mephoto said...

Kimberleigh it breaks my heart to hear your cancer has spread....My thoughts are with you and your family. I admire your strength and your ability to communicate what you need to others..Your an inspiration......a remarkable woman..And I Truly Hope you Kick this Cancer's Ass....Keep your body strong......God Bless
Lisa

ajquinn354 said...

Kim you just take it one day at a time, know we are all here for you and care.  You're one strong cookie, keep that fighting spirit going. Keep positive dear, that is what I'm doing for you.....hope you can feel the hug I'm sending you.  Arlene (AJ)

jlocorriere05 said...

Oh so true that we can always find someone worse off than ourselves. I do hope the occupants of the SUV were freed and alive. Keep up the positive outlook you've been blessed with, I know it can help so much! Jeannette xx  http://journals.aol.co.uk/jlocorriere05/Welcometomytravels/  

jmorancoyle said...

     Is it in the Bible where it says, "I cried because I had no shoes, but then I met a man who had no feet?" You are in my prayers. Take care of yourself, and have a good Easter.
Jude
http://journals.aol.com/jmorancoyle/MyWay

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coopsbaby said...

I Have been following your journal and you are amazing,I am so glad to read you have a great support sysytem , may god bless you and your test come back with it only in the 1 lung, I will continue to pray for a good out come for you
During my husbands ordeal I did not have any support system
         Good Luck Deanna
http://journals.aol.com/coopsbaby/the-right-to-die/

canyonsun04 said...

Irish = Stubborn
:)
And yes, someone always has it worse then we do.  I'm getting a goodie box ready for you, but I want it to be OVER THE TOP!!!!!!!!!! Cause your so special.
Love
ang

jerseygirlphotos said...

isn't that the truth.  is a good way to keep a positive perspective on things....you ever listen to belle ruth? you might like her CD's, especially with the positive attitude you already have....just a thought i was thinking when i read your entries today, she might keep you positive on days you're not feeling so positive and give you extra tools for the battle ahead.  

rayne1123 said...

i am so sorry it spread i will be praying that it did not go any place else
hugs
noelle

pprrrr39 said...

Kim, you are such a caring person, always worrying that someone is worse of than you. My heartfelt prayers go out to you
hugs
Jayne

sunnyside46 said...

love ya
Marti