Last Monday when I got the news I immediately called Jim and asked him to come home....he was home in 30 minutes. During that 30 minutes I let a few tears slip, I called my closest girlfriends to let them know the results and I called my Mother.....none of them handled it very good. My one GF, Judy who is a 3.5 year lung cancer survivor (Yeah girl!) had a tumor the size of a lemon and they removed that portion of her lung and only gave her radiation. They told her at her last check up when she asked how come chemo was not an option for her they told her that they have made great strides in Lung Cancer since then and that if she was to be a new LC patient chemo would be a definite. My tumor is only the size of a nickel....piece of cake right!!! lol I am still holding my breath just a little because if the cancer has already spread to my lungs from the breast...just where else did it escape to? The PET Scan I had on Friday will answer that. So here are the scenarios....
It's just in my lung, in that one spot and it is my ER/PR positive Breast Cancer (Same kind Elizabeth Edwards had) and can easily be treated again with chemo, shutting down my ovaries with that new shot they have so I no longer produce estrogen and feed these blasted tumors that keep forming and/or just a simple surgery to remove the tumor and then some radiation. So it could just be surgery or surgery with chemo (again) or surgery with chemo and radiation. Either way it's nothing that I can't handle right?? Truly BEEN THERE DONE THAT! lol lol lol
Now of the PET Scan shows it has spread to other areas then it will be a whole new ball game. Am I up for the treatment? When you want to live you have no other choice but to give it all you got and warrior through it! In my heart I do not think this is the death of me...but since my cancer is so very aggressive (#3....that's tops on that scale) it's tougher to treat and keep in remission.....that's totally obvious now that the cancer still made it through 4 months of chemo, but then again so did I!!!
Good thing I am a stubborn Irish Woman huh? lol lol lol
And another thing happened that Monday..remember I went out with some of my GF's? Well, On the highway there was a SUV on it's side and they were using the jaws of life to extricate the occupants...even though I was told that afternoon that my cancer was back I still knew someone else was having a worse day than me at that moment....there is always a bigger picture and something to humble you by.