Monday, May 9, 2005

Even Camelot has moments

Even Camelot has moments........besides suffering from huge writers block the last week or so, and I don't know if it's because I have disassociated myself from life ( "safe mode" left over trick from my childhood) or it's because I am completely overwhelmed with what is on my plate right now, that I can't think about it or even write down a few sentences as to not send me into over load. But I am going to try to get some of it out so I can at least get rid of some of the stress of holding it all in.


Thursday - spent day at outlet mall helping a new friend update her wardrobe after being widowed 2 years, she wants to get back into life again.......fun but long day!


Friday - kids have half day (not always a good precursor for parents) One was grounded for lying about homework, one was whining because he couldn't go shoot his bow, the other one was whining just because she can and I have to go grocery shopping and do light housekeeping plus I have plans to go out with friends to celebrate "Denise's" return to her life, night ends with exhaustion around 2:00 am


Saturday - phone rings 6:40 a.m (early phone calls/late phone calls always bad news) it's my sister telling me one of our friends son died the night before, His mother (Judy, my Girlfriend) had just left to spend time with her mother in Florida, it has been a rough 2 years for this friend and she was one of my friends on the cruise we all took in February. Her son was a recovering heroin addict and was found dead in his new apartment by his roommate. We are still waiting for the autopsy, more disturbing news this 'roommate' last roommate was recently found dead in same apartment...like 2 weeks ago!  I can't even talk about this anymore.


Mother's day is spent waking up at 5 a.m. to get the family ready for breakfast with my Mom and siblings, then off to the ranch to spend a couple hours with another woman who is Motherly to me, I call My mother-in-law to wish her a happy Mother's day and find out they are planning to come up for an extended visit some time next month (OH JOY!) Now just in the last year or so for some reason my body just starts to turn on me, I have problems with swelling in the soft tissue and the joints in my body at random and of course it picks today to flare up, walking and even sitting becomes painful, but I still have to join my family again back at the lake, for a Mothers day cook out, but at least I was finally able to meet another girlfriends mid life baby......her other child just turned 16 when they found out they were having a mid life baby......they are both in their mid 40's.....Julianna is just beautiful. The day is still over shadowed by the news of Judy loosing her only child. By 9:30 p.m I can't seem to handle anything and as I shut my bedroom door for the night saying I just can't take anymore today as I hobble back to my bed, Hubby makes a HUGE mistake and says, "What was so stressful for you this weekend?" I mumble something along the lines "Go to hell and oh by the way..... thanks for topping off a lovely Mother's day!" as I drift off to sleep with tears in my eyes.


And that was only the last 4 days......

12 comments:

courtenaymphelan said...

I can feel your pain...you have really been on my mind and I hold you up in prayers on your health issues. I wish we lived closer I would be right there by your side to comfort you...it seems all of us are going through overwhelming times. As far as the loss of your friends son, I know we will all be praying for you and her family.
Luv Courtenay

dklars said...

Bless your heart.  I hope you feel better (physically) and my prayers go out for you to get through this trying time.
~~Kath~~

luvspspnkids said...

Happy Mothers Day
Your right that is alot on your plate in just one weekend!
Bella

imshadowraven2 said...

I had wondered where u had been but oh lord how did u get thru all of this without doing someone in....lol j/k oops my bad i sure hope things get better for you . if u need to talk u know how to find me ....Robin

angelm0304 said...

You sure have been busy!!  I will keep you in my thoughts and prayers!  
Hugs,
Angel
http://journals.aol.com/angelm0304/MyLife

astaryth said...

{{{{{{{{Hugs}}}}}}} It always seems that when it rains it pours! Deep breaths, and I'll be keeping you in my thoughts..
http://journals.aol.com/astaryth/AdventuresofanEclecticMind

mawmellow said...

Hang in there.......I remember you telling me.....when the going gets tough,,,,,yada, yada, yada !!!  Remember THAT conversation?  You and your family are in my prayers always but I'll say some "special" ones for just you, girlfriend!!!  

judithheartsong said...

oh..... a warm hug to you sweet woman. judi

happysunshien said...

big hugs coming your way!

Kelly

samnsmile5 said...

Oh boy...my thoughts and prayers are with you...sending them your way.  I can't imagine losing a child and the heartache that never goes away.  I hope your days are brighter and that you are hanging in there.  :)
Michele
http://journals.aol.com/samnsmile5/LettingItAllSinkIn

sunnyside46 said...

what an awful weekend!
Marti

paisleyskys said...

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