Friday, March 30, 2007

No Shoes....just shot gun shells! lol

I don't know about the rest of the world but by day I don't have a care in the world.....but come nightfall is when the weight of the world sits on my shoulders. Thanks to the Doctor and that lil bottle of xannnax I have no problem falling asleep....it's if I wake up in the middle of the night is when my mind goes on overload and either I can't fall back to sleep at all or I stay in that in between state of half awake and half asleep and remember every detail.

Since I had to start flushing my system with lots of water(3 p.m. yesterday) for today's test I was up making several trips to the bathroom all night. I had many dreams and in my dreams last night I was going around saying goodbye to everyone and finding things around my home that had sentimental meanings to me and giving them to certain people who would hold onto that meaning. I was at peace with my fate..I remember every sentence started out with "I am dying and I want you to have this" kinda morbid I know! I don't put much thought into interpreting my dreams....not that I don't believe we dream for a reason....I just usually never needed to figure it out, I always awoke content.....usually my dreams settle something in my sleep mode that I can't settle in my wake mode.

I know with my Sister, every time she dreamed her teeth were falling out someone in our circle of life passed away. Now that she has dentures......I don't know if it holds the same meaning...Her teeth come out every night!!!! lmaooooooo

I am going to work out this morning, it has improved my strength and endurance greatly...but then it will be a quiet day spent at home...I've been on the verge of a migraine since last night...first one in a long time which is a very good sign..last one was August of last year while I was in the hospital following my Mastectomy..which caused me to get sick to my stomach then Atrial Fib.....crossing my fingers that doesn't happen again today!

I didn't get to go shoe shopping......I ended up at the gun range  all afternoon instead! Don't ask! lol lol lol

20 comments:

ukgal36 said...

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kirkbyj05 said...

Now that she has dentures......I don't know if it holds the same meaning...Her teeth come out every night!!!!
ROFL at this one....you are a star!
 
And we women are also great actresses too to protect our family.  (Aren't we?)When the sleep curtain comes down.. then we are on our own.  You do right though...leave the dreams to sort out that which you can't sort out through the day. I did exactly the same.  You keep your chin up and fire away!  You are one fabulous woman.
Shame about the shoes though....I still would have liked to have imagined coming with you to choose a pair of 'Dorothy' shoes.  (Ankle socks too. Lol!) Click!..click!
All the best for your tests today...thinking of you.   Jeanie

pippa1116 said...

gun range???? hey, whatever works.....and I wonder, how soon do you get the results from this?
I'll be praying for you!!!!
Tina

mawmellow said...

Just because Jim didn't want you to buy more shoes, doesn't mean you had to challenge him at the gun range !!  Anxiously waiting with you for test results.  

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thegirlnexdoor77 said...

Wow do we have alot in common...I love to go to gun ranges and love to target practice...Just know that you have an army of friends praying for ya!  Hugs,TerryAnn

sdoscher458 said...

Shooting is good....actually hitting the target is even better. My hubby wants me to learn how to shoot and wants me to go to the range too. How about a pistol packing Grandma? Think I would scare the bad guys? They would probably layon the floor laughing.  Think positively, imagine anything bad evaporating...hoping everything comes back clear.....love..Sandi

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ajquinn354 said...

You are in my special thoughts and prayers Kim.  Oh dang, couldn't wait to see the shoes you were going to buy.....gun range instead, boy that has to be intersting, lol.  You just hang in there dear, keep those good thoughts..Arlene (AJ)

stupidsheetguy said...

Shootin' instead of shoes, huh? Bet the boys liked that choice!

I hear ya on the nighttime heavies. LOL, Xanax...yay!

Jimmy

rgossett4195 said...

I always dream about babies.  I totally understand the gun range statement!  what we women won't do for our men!   rose

princesssaurora said...

Hope the headache leaves and you have a wonderful weekend... and good news on Monday...

be well,
Dawn

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tendernoggle said...

just a quick to note to remind you that you are my hero and don't you forget it! Gotta go to work now...
love ya,
carlene

bookncoffee said...

Hi there.  Just letting you know I stopped by.  Dreams are always something aren't they.  We always seem to think they mean something.  I'm never sure they do unless God plants them.  I know sometimes he has used dreams to help change my mind about doing something the right way...meaning ....to change my opinion and do the right things...but who really knows.  I always found dreams fascinating and did a study on it in school.  We sleep in 1.5 hour cycles.  If you wake up in the middle of a 1.5 hour cycle, we usually remember our dreams.  Supposedly we dream a lot and just don't remember b/c it is normal to wake up at the end of 1.5 hour cycle.  Just a hint.  If you ever want to time your wake up time to where you want to be able to get up easy...sleep in 1.5 cycles.  Six hours of sleep, 7.5 hours, 9, etc. LOL  I found it works.  Take care.
Sonya

totallymentalben said...

Hi Kim :-)...I'm hoping your testing went well and that the migrane never came. (Flushing the system can be an experience...I've discovered that colonoscopies are easy, it's drinking a gallon of that gatorade-from-hell the night before that sucks.) How did it all go?

You're really not going to keep from us how you ended up at the rifle range, are you?

Wishing you good things, continuously...
Ben
http://journals.aol.com/totallymentalben/better-left-unsaid

sunnyside46 said...

I hve a theory about that horrid night terror feeling... I think we are genetically programmed to feel scared when we wake in the night because back in the cavepeople days when something woke you, it was bound to be something that might eat you!
Imagine yourself shoooting all vestiges of cancer when you go to that rifle range!
I am mentally putting my arms around you and concentrating with all my feeble mind to keep all nasties and things tha tgo bunmp in the night away from you!

ethurman314 said...

HEY, it will get alot better soon.... I dont wish it on anyone ........ AND idont know how it feels like either , but it will be ok , still.... I had to learn how to deal with two life changeing problems , the first one was , my DAUGHTERS , She was born with DOWNS , And i had a hard time dealing with it .... I learned how to deal for her since she was born .... Now she is doing greart in alife and in school with normal school , with 9-12grade kids..... Now my ex-wife has aproblem , she has the (A) Its ALZHEIMERS , and it is more harder then DOWNS for me , because she hads no one to help her at all right now .... Her 3 socall GROWN DAUGHTERS  DONT CARE ....... SO i talked out with my mother and my daughter from her , then i started moveing her in to our home to live with us ,here in st.loius mo.  ......... I learned alot about her problem and it is not easy at all , but someone needed to help her .... MY daughers mother was good women and she didnt need this at all in her life.... Its herts me to see the face of asweet  lady go though that in that way ............ I try to be here for anyone ,thats the way my mother rases us to be inlife ............ Dateing is harded now because of dealing with my ex-wife and daughter ,but it was hard then ,justdealing with my daughter alone ........ Iwould'nt change anything still ...........   THANK YOU FOR READING YOUR BOLG ..... ETHURMAN314 @AOL......... THANK YOU .........