Life is good...is it not? Ü

Since my diagnosis I've pretty much shared every wonderful, touching, miserable moment here in my blog, I've showed pictures of my breast following my mammotome biopsy, I've showed pictures of my new breast post-op and it's healing progress, I've shown pictures of my belly area after the tram flap reconstruction and the bonus tummy tuck <perk> lol! And I have shared my family life and my mental state through out all this.

You all have been very kind, very loving and very supportive to me and my family during this time and there are no words that can tell you how much every word, in every comment has touched my heart.

Yesterday, late afternoon I received really good news, the Colposcopy results came back benign....Happy dancing here....I just have to go back in 6 months for another pap test....normal protocol ......whewwww! And more good news is some of the dexterity is returning to my fingers, small button still give me a hard time, but I can break pills and tie shoes, grab zippers (minds out of the gutter please! lol) and other small hand motor skills......another yeah for me! This was because of the chemo, not the cancer....just so you know.

I think what I did fail to mention in this blog, is the things that can happen with a tram flap reconstruction. You can and most likely will end up with a lumpy boob thanks to fat necrosis....so of course the first time I felt a lump in the new boob, I went over the edge, then they told me about fat necrosis.......gee Doc's how about telling me that up front! lol Maybe it was me, maybe I didn't do my homework on that, I can also feel small bumps where the stitches are, now they are covered with scar tissue. so even though the new boob looks fabulous it's lumps are hard and sometimes uncomfortable...just thought anyone who has been touched by BC recently should know a few things about the tram flap reconstruction, that wasn't explained to me in great detail. They say if they become to bothersome they can go in and shave them down...but that will take away the fullness of the new breast.

So here I am 8 months since being diagnosed and my scars are healing very well, my mind has stayed relatively strong, my fingers are working better each day, my arm range is getting better (from the removal of the lymph nodes)...My breast, abdomen, the back of my left arm, my fingers and my toes are still numb...but all in all I think I can live with that! ;)

I go for the breast MRI later today on the right breast, and I'm getting a pretty good vibe about this finally....I'm seeing nothing but blue skies from now on!

The reason I have shared with the World Wide Web my journey through all this, is because for some reason it made my cancer less scarry for me (call me selfish! lol), and if I could help the next person who is given a cancer diagnosis see that even though you can't control the fact that you have cancer, cancer doesn't have to have you!

I remember my first day at the Cancer Hospital and was told by one of the very kind nurses........'Some people go home and crawl into bed with your diagnosis and have already lost the battle, then there are those people who fight like hell and not let cancer take more than it has too from them........I see you are a fighter and you are going to be just fine!" And you know what? I think I am too!

I am blessed! Aren't I!

Tags: Breast Cancer Survivor, Colposcopy, Mammatome