Thursday, March 22, 2007

Life is good...is it not? Ü

Since my diagnosis I've pretty much shared every wonderful, touching, miserable moment here in my blog, I've showed pictures of my breast following my mammotome biopsy, I've showed pictures of my new breast post-op and it's healing progress, I've shown pictures of my belly area after the tram flap reconstruction and the bonus tummy tuck <perk> lol! And I have shared my family life and my mental state through out all this.

You all have been very kind, very loving and very supportive to me and my family during this time and there are no words that can tell you how much every word, in every comment has touched my heart.

Yesterday, late afternoon I received really good news, the Colposcopy results came back benign....Happy dancing here....I just have to go back in 6 months for another pap test....normal protocol ......whewwww! And more good news is some of the dexterity is returning to my fingers, small button still give me a hard time, but I can break pills and tie shoes, grab zippers (minds out of the gutter please! lol) and other small hand motor skills......another yeah for me! This was because of the chemo, not the cancer....just so you know.

I think what I did fail to mention in this blog, is the things that can happen with a tram flap reconstruction. You can and most likely will end up with a lumpy boob thanks to fat necrosis....so of course the first time I felt a lump in the new boob, I went over the edge, then they told me about fat necrosis.......gee Doc's how about telling me that up front! lol Maybe it was me, maybe I didn't do my homework on that, I can also feel small bumps where the stitches are, now they are covered with scar tissue. so even though the new boob looks fabulous it's lumps are hard and sometimes uncomfortable...just thought anyone who has been touched by BC recently should know a few things about the tram flap reconstruction, that wasn't explained to me in great detail. They say if they become to bothersome they can go in and shave them down...but that will take away the fullness of the new breast.

So here I am 8 months since being diagnosed and my scars are healing very well, my mind has stayed relatively strong, my fingers are working better each day, my arm range is getting better (from the removal of the lymph nodes)...My breast, abdomen, the back of my left arm, my fingers and my toes are still numb...but all in all I think I can live with that! ;)

I go for the breast MRI later today on the right breast, and I'm getting a pretty good vibe about this finally....I'm seeing nothing but blue skies from now on!

The reason I have shared with the World Wide Web my journey through all this, is because for some reason it made my cancer less scarry for me (call me selfish! lol), and if I could help the next person who is given a cancer diagnosis see that even though you can't control the fact that you have cancer, cancer doesn't have to have you!

I remember my first day at the Cancer Hospital and was told by one of the very kind nurses........'Some people go home and crawl into bed with your diagnosis and have already lost the battle, then there are those people who fight like hell and not let cancer take more than it has too from them........I see you are a fighter and you are going to be just fine!" And you know what? I think I am too!

I am blessed! Aren't I!


34 comments:

tugboatannie79 said...

Wow you are an amazing lady! I have only started reading your journal and that brought a tear to my eye!!! GO GIRL!!!! That nurse gave you very wise words!!! Good luck for your MRI today Your in my prayers! Kelly X

midwestvintage said...

 I really like the way you faced it and from my 10 years in oncology I knew you would do well, and you did.

                Julie

happysunshien said...

:smile:  we love ya!

kelly

astaryth said...

All Good News! Doing my own little happy dance over here!
http://journals.aol.com/astaryth/AdventuresofanEclecticMind/
http://adventuresofaneclecticmind.blogspot.com/

mariebm56 said...

You are an amazing trooper, you never gave up & have a great attitude, but that is nothing new to you.  You already know that.  You have showed JLand what an amazingly strong person you are, you have shown me..Ü.  I wish I could have the strength you have.  THANK YOU for sharing.
Marie
http://journals.aol.co.uk/mariebm56/PhotographsMemoriestoo/

imshadowraven2 said...

Your a good woman who deserves good things. I can only hope to be half the woman you have showed us all that you are....................love ya Robin

dwhee70041 said...

Kim,
This is GREAT news!  We'll do the happy dance with you!
David

lazarai said...

Hooray!!!

That's all...just doing the dance of joy for you!!!!

Hugs,
:) Carol

memes121 said...

Amen my friend. Tammy

kidzmakeucrazy said...

I am so glad you have such a possitive outlook, and yes you have helped many, although it is not myelf, but my family that is suffering from this, you have helped me deal with helping them deal.  Bless you always, you are an inspiration....
MISSY

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ajquinn354 said...

Kim, no douobt in my mind you are a fighter, truly believe this is the answer for many health problems to never give up like you.  Wonderful news on the Colposcopy results dear, just knew in my heart that it would be benign from seeing my Sis having to go through the same.  Keep the positive attitude on your MRI also dear.....your journal has brought inspiration to so many people....what a blessing you have been to all of them.   Arlene (AJ)

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mosie1944 said...

Thanks for sharing your good news.  I've been waiting and praying and hoping.

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pharmolo said...

Excellent news, Kim, about the colposcopy results :-D)

lindaggeorge said...

You're a special lady.

Linda x.

plieck30 said...

So glad to hear your great news. Keep on dancin' Paula

princesssaurora said...

Yes, you are.  I worked for surgeons who did tram flaps.  You can also get fat injections (they will harvest it from your butt, a plus) into the breast to help smooth is out and give more fullness too.  

You are an amazing fighter and it is wonderful that you share it all here.

be well,
Dawn
http://journals.aol.com/princesssaurora/CarpeDiem/

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wickedpink64 said...

Fabulous news! Now you can go forward into this summer and enjoy it even more (remember it owes you for last summer too!!!). The cancer nurse was so right, half the battle is the right state of mind - and you certainly have that one covered!
Enjoy!

Hugs

Wendy in Oz

rbrown6172 said...

i think you are definitely blessed.  you have been blessed with courage and strength and optimism...you are blessed with family and friends...and that's what makes you truly rich in my book.  i have just recently come upon your journal, but i really admire your openess and courage.  you are in my prayers.  :)
gina

tendernoggle said...

YES MAM YOU ARE BLESSED AND SO ARE WE FOR HAVING GOTTEN TO KNOW YOU........"THANK YOU SWEET JESUS FOR YOUR HEALING OF OUR FRIEND"...AMEN AND AMEN...
GOD BLESS YOU MY HERO!
LOVE YA,
CARLENE

swferstl said...

Yes, gal, you ARE blessed! I'm so glad your 'scopy came back clear!!! And thanks for the warning about zippers! ha! 'Course, might be a stretch from there to Florida! :-D loads of hugs from one Irish gal to the other....sher (wunzuponatime)

gehi6 said...

Glad to hear this news and will be waiting to see how your Thursday date with the MRI goes.  I went step by step throung my companion's of three years fight with lung cancer.  I will never forget wen he got the news it ws lung cancer and metastisized.  He said, "this is insane."  Meaning he was going to die very soon, and he did, in less than month.  In fact, his favorite nurse was so shocked to hear he died she screamed when I told her.  He didn't even have time to lose weight and went out as handsome as ever.  But you are far too young to go at this time. But cancer is such a tough row to hoe.  Oh my.  Best to you.   Gerry

missy92980 said...

You ARE blessed, Kim, and we are all blessed to know you.

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sunnyside46 said...

not only are you blessed, you spread that blessing around.
I was feeling a litlle bummed this morning and after a breif visit with you, things are back in perspective again and I can go on my way with a little more spring in my step.
I just love you. I wish you lived next door so you could share this pot of coffee with me.
Marti

totallymentalben said...

Hi there, Kim...

Congratulations on a great diagnosis!  There are a lot of people smiling now.

Thank you, too, for helping me (along with many others, I'm sure) keep a perspective on things when those blue-sy feelings start to come up.

Keep up that great work...
Ben
http://journals.aol.com/totallymentalben/better-left-unsaid

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ann7inflorida said...

More like you're a blessing :).

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