Thursday, March 15, 2007

A boob, a biopsy, a Boy and his Bass

10 minutes before I had to leave for my Colposcopy appointment I have a lil 'freak out' session, I'm yelling at Jim for no reason, I'm so nervous I literally choke on the vicodin I'm trying swallow and up it comes.......DO OVER! 2 times! That was weird, I must have been really nervous or I remember when I was going through chemo and my meals consisted of mostly meds...I was unable to swallow a lot during that time....all in my head! I know!

So after I swallow about 1127 MG's of vicodin and Jim finally gets me in the truck, I'm good! I'm calm...I even left goldylocks at home! When I first learned I would loose my hair to chemo I thought I would be OK with that, but it took me a long time to stop seeing the carved up sideshow freak with the bald head every time I looked into the mirror. Then when I first started to wear Goldylocks I swore everyone could tell it was a wig! Even though people who have known me for decades said it looked just like my old hair and new people that would come into my life swore they didn't know.....here lies the irony in it all....it seems I was more worried about people knowing that I was wearing a wig than the fact that I was bald! What is up with that?? lol I just realized this yesterday when I spent my entire day out in public as "the bald chick with the funky earrings" lol

I went to my Doctor's appointment without it, sat in the packed waiting room blowing bubbles that popped all over my face several times, Jim kept telling me to stop and I'm like "Why? It's not like I'm gonna get it stuck in my hair or something!!" That sent him over the edge laughing! Now during my procedure with yet again another handsome Doctor...must be my lucky year for that! lol He said that my cervix was closed completely and that it's common for women my age......my foot almost slipped out of the stir up and kicked him in his handsome face.... accidentally of course! lol Woman my age!!!! geeesh I'm only 44! lol Then he said or it could be because of the Tomaxifen....so I'm going with that! lol lol lol Well anyway he said that he had to do a small biopsy at the edge of the cervix so my cervix would respond by opening and giving him a better view...he was very pleased with what he saw or didn't see, He told me he's still sending the tissue off for the biopsy but that it didn't look like anything to worry about! See ya in six months for another pap test just for reassurance............yipppppeeeee! And there wasn't any pain or cramping just a small pinch and it was over in about 4 minutes.

After the Doctor's office we came home for a bit then one of my girlfriends called to check up on me (it was her 35th B-day too) and since I was feeling much better than I thought I would we decided to hook up at the lake so off I took my bald self to the grocery store to pick up some things to cook out there for dinner and a birthday cake for her of course, then back home to get Jim and the kids and off to the lake I went...bald!...I think goldylocks might be brought out of retirement only for special occasions from now on!

Today I find out about that other lump in my other breast...still not sure what vibe I'm getting on that...no fear just a little dread....but at least my mind will be at peace...it's the not knowing that messes with my head the most....if my news is just as good today as yesterday what an incredible summer I'm going to have this year and I can put last years sucky one behind me! Ü



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That boy look like his Momma or what??? lol lol


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27 comments:

lazarai said...

Oh WOW, he is the spitting image of YOU, Kim!!!

Good luck today...I'll be thinking about you!!

Hugs,
Carol

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bethjunebug said...

Wonderful news! You are a tough cookie girlfriend. I'm 44 too, and I would have been offended too... with that comment Dr. Cuttie Pie made. Well I know the other will come out positive too, just think it! I will be praying for you too. Fun day fishing it looked like. I love to fish too.
God Bless,
Liz in Va.
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astaryth said...

Hey... How come I never get cute Docs???? Glad to hear all the news was good!
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midwestvintage said...

 Gee, I never get handsome doctors.  I have been raving before tests before.  The stress just throws you over the top.

                  Julie

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dwhee70041 said...

Kim,
He is a handsome young man!   Nice looking fish too!
David

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lanurseprn said...

Wow Kim your son looks so much like you!!  Handsome young man, for sure!
I had one of those colposcopy's once. You described it like I remember it. The doc had my cervix put up on a TV screen as he did the proceedure. So I watched live as he snipped and nipped.  It was interesting.  
I'm glad you had fun at the lake.  Sounds like you will have a great summer!
Pam

nhd106 said...

Man...what a great attitude you have there!  And funny too! I'm so glad to hear that things are looking up for ya.    
Take care,
Nancy

stupidsheetguy said...

The record you're keeping here is going to be a great reminder to look back on when you're all better and back enjoying life to the fullest. Funny, the things that we worry about when things like this happen, right?

Jimmy

PS. I couldn't tell either :)

princesssaurora said...

I am happy to hear that your aged cervix looked good!!  LOL  Don't ya hate when docs say that crap!!!  I am 41 and they make me sound like a hundred too!  lol

I am sending you more prayers and waiting to hear about the lump... hopefully nothing... fingers crossed....

Good for you about going out bald!!!  Own it sister!!!  You ROCK!

be well,
Dawn
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kirkbyj05 said...

You have such a positive nature towards life and its knocks.  I admire you.  I gave up on my wig in the end.  It was either too drafty wearing it in windy weather or too hot indoors.  It took a bit of getting used to the stares but you know what?   So what!  Chemo ruined my digestion too.  Just swallowing saliva was difficult but again...it didn't kill me.  I'm still here to moan and groan....Lol!
Keep blowing your bubblegum and snap it loudly too...lol!   Your son is soooo handsome!  He definitely takes after you.  And what a lovely fat fish he's holding.....magic!   Hope it tasted nice.  Jeanie

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holly00000 said...

Kim~ I just love reading your journal! Thanks for being so damn funny in the midst of it all! Love~ Holly in Hawaii

pharmolo said...

Well, sounds positive, Kim. Hope the boob verdict goes the same way :-)

ajquinn354 said...

Kim good news on the cervix, hoping for the same with the boob for you.  Just love how you are able to stay upbeat and keep us all laughing as you tell us about your day....you are one special lady dear.....all of us who read your journal, hold you in a special place in our hearts always.....Arlene (AJ)

tendernoggle said...

Man...I think I would have had to poke that doctor just a, little anyway for the ceverix comment!
I am so happy to hear that you got good news....Prayting that you get more!
love ya,
carlene

wipforever said...

OMG! The SPITTING IMAGE of his Momma!!!!  Wow!

You just be sure that no matter what, you take care of your "bald self"!  I'm praying for you!

Love
Sheila

PS  Send some of those handsome docs this way!  LOL!

emabecmar said...

he looks just like you. very handsome young man. I never wore a wig when i lost my hair, only a bandana. when it was an inch long i didn't wear bandana anymore. I hope you get nothing but good news from now on. (((((hugs))))))))
Cindy

inafrnz247 said...

Praying it's all good from here on out ~ keeping you in my thoughts and heart, Kim.

WOW about the pic...  That is simply uncanny how much you look alike!  You are both beautiful people from the inside out!  (ok, so I know you a little bit better, sure... but if he's anything like his momma, he's got it made!)

Hugs and blessings,

Michelle

psychfun said...

Good God are you lucky. It was so painful for me. I was breathing so much I almost hyperventilated! Good luck with the rest.

cvgflydis said...

Sending you strength, hope, prayers, and love!
Angel

eilenbug said...

He's a QT!

sunnyside46 said...

Is everything AOL little for you?
I don't know what the deal is.
I am keeping you in my heart!
Your son is so cute!
I bet he si proud of that fish
.Normal things made precious by their dailiness ...tha's what keeps us all going.
Marti