Tuesday, June 19, 2007

bald chick versus goldylocks

Most of the time I run around bald......kinda used to it since this is the second time in less than 8 months that I am as hairless as a hairless cat! lol The funny thing is I get much more eye contact from people then I ever did before and when someone makes eye contact with me I always give out a greeting and people always respond back in kind.

It's gotten to the point I am very comfortable being bald.....there is nothing like the feeling of a warm summer breeze  running through the 7 or 8 hairs you have left! lol lol lol But sometimes, just sometimes I don't want to be the bald chick, I want to just blend in and look as if I am not in the middle of a health crisis. That's when Goldylocks comes into play. I went to the hospital bald (as usual) and while waiting for them to call me into the chemo room to do a blood draw I was talking to an elderly woman about our families and about my cancer, she was very interested in mine and didn't mention why she was there...I enjoyed our conversation immensely, I tend to be waaay more open to strangers than people that I have known for years....A stranger can tell your secrets and you won't care.

While I was talking to her this striking older woman came over to me and said, "If I had your beautiful face I'd take my wig off right here and never wear it again!" I told her, "She was beautiful and she didn't need her wig either!" we both thanked each other and finally my name was called......off course they could get my port to take fluids but once again it refused to draw blood back....so it took 3 veins to get 3 vials of blood and of course all 3 veins were blown...such is life for a stingy blood giver! lol I swear I'm stopping at Happy Hour the next time before and do a lil blood thinning on my own....ya never know it just might work! ;)

So last night I had a date with Jim......dinner out with no kids...and I didn't want to be the bald chick last night.....so it turned out to be me, Jim and Goldylocks....my Son wanted to take a picture because he said I looked beautiful.......he can be very charming when he wants to be and then there are times.....lol! When I saw the picture I almost cried...it looked so much like the old healthy me....for a moment I didn't see a cancer patient....I saw a forty something woman without a care in the world...I hope I get to see more of her and less of the cancer patient.....a lot hinges on the news I get Thursday...still no intuition signs yet.


JWH 2007 (my Son the budding photographer)

67 comments:

lazarai said...

That is a BEAUTIFUL photo of you....and I love the story behind it!! I hope you have many, many more opportunities to see that forty-something woman without a care in the world....

Hugs,
:) Carol

lisbrws said...

You look beautiful.

mumma4evr said...

hair, no hair. you are beautiful and an inspiration to all of us...
did I tell you  my tests were ok?
Becky

lmitc89854 said...

You are perfect, either way.

inquestoftruth said...

You really are beautiful to see....but even more, you are so beautiful on the inside.   Still praying for you.
~Meg

candlejmr said...

Well, here's the thing....this picture is GORGEOUS....YOU are gorgeous!  BUT....you are JUST as gorgeous in those bald pictures!!!

Face it woman, YOU'RE GORGEOUS!!!!  Ain't nothing that can change that!!!!

((hugs))
Jeanne

princesssaurora said...

It is a beautiful picture, but even when I see you without Goldi, I see a strong beautiful healthy warrior, but that is through my battle worn eyes.  So, I relate.  Last night, no one knew your secret, your battle, you were just another mom and dad out and about.

{{{ Kim }}} You rock.  And, it is great to have both options.

be well,
Dawn
http://journals.aol.com/princesssaurora/CarpeDiem/

nhd106 said...

I agree with the others...you look beautiful EITHER way...

Nancy

chat2missie said...

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lionesscarol1 said...

Kim:  You are beautiful with or without hair.  More important you are beautiful on the inside.  Your journal has given courage and incentive to many of us cancer patients.  I tell myself, if she can do it, I can do it.  The power of your words soothes the soul, I cry with you, laugh with you, through the good times and bad times.  You are a blessing.  God loves you.
Love, Carol
LionessCarol1@aol.com

sangrialel said...

You do look beautiful!  But then you look that way all the time cuz you are just a beautiful person through and through all the time.  Linda

mpnaz58 said...

I see a beautiful woman, with strength and determination in her eyes, and compassion and wisdom in her smile.  Take care...
xoxo ~Myra

dying4happiness said...

Hey thanks for stopping by!

You think I'm funny eh?

You ain't seen nuthin' yet!

I was thinking of Vlogging this Summer, although my reality is not funny.  I run a daycare and live with my mother.

~V~

kirkbyj05 said...

Kim....I wish I could get my grandson to sing you the song he sang to me, all the way through without stopping, when I was bald because of my chemo.  He was only just turned six and he truly has a beautiful 'Angel' voice.  (They have snapped him up for the school choir.)
It was James Blunt's  'Your Beautiful'.  I had tears in my eyes when he sang it to me.  
I hope you have heard of it in America and can hear it in your head now that I mention it.   Because you ARE beautiful!  Inside and outside my friend.  I pray for a good result on Thursday.  (((Hugs)))  Jeanie

plieck30 said...

The photo is beautiful but then you always are. Paula

mztishgray0726 said...

What a beautiful picture of you.  I have been continuing to pray for you and I sure stand in prayer that the news Thursday comes back favorable.  Hugs.  Tish G.

pharmolo said...

Beauty is housed on the inside, the outside is transient.

xomywayox said...

Bald is sooo hot! lol I'm @ work right now and I thought I'd stop by your place and do a little catching up with you & your world. Aww is the first thought that comes to my mind. You are simply amazing and I like you in & out of your wig.

Ciao Bella....Brenda

easteeleco said...

Your son is right, you do look beautiful in that picture.  :)  Glad you had a nice date with Jim.   Hugs, Estela

jckfrstross said...

you are beautiful!! have a good week:)

Deb

klconard1 said...

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sugerb6 said...

A picture worthy of a thousand words. Your beauty is RADIANT!!!
Hugs,
Debbie

tendernoggle said...

Your son was right.YOU ARE VERY BEAUTIFUL!!!!! You look VERY VERY healthy and I believe that you are gonna get some good news!!!
I just love ya..You are my inspiration!!!
God bless you Kim,
love ya,
carlene

thinkingoutloud said...

You are beautiful bald.  You are beautiful with hair.
You are beautiful.  Inside & out.
You really are a beautiful person.

Have a wonderful day:)
Love ya,
Niki

molly146012 said...

Wow! You do look beautiful! :) glad you had a great evening out ...praying for you as always. {{{{{{{BIG HUGS}}}}}}} Molly

swferstl said...

Way to go, Son!!! Awesome pic, Kim! But that lady is right...you are one of the luckiest people who can go bald & be totally feminine!! I love what you said it does for eye contact. The only time I think I felt that way was after giving birth & feeling like there was nothing else left to hide, know what I mean??? HAAA!
hugs, sher
http://journals.aol.com/swferstl/wunzuponatime/






wildautumn1 said...

You look beautiful with or without your hair and you are beautiful on the inside. I love talking to strangers too. I always walk away with something new.

sdoscher458 said...

Kim, your beauty shines through and your son has a great eye and heart.  So glad that you and Jim enjoyed a night out, keep the fires going....love, Sandi

acoward15 said...

Great photo. Your looking good!!!!!!
http://journals.aol.co.uk/acoward15/andy-the-bastard

canyonsun04 said...

It's amazing how wigs can look that real!!! You do have a beautiful face and I could see you pulling off the bald look well. I think I would look horrible, my forehead goes on forever!!!!!  I think it easier to open up to strangers, they expext nothing, they don't "assume".
Hugs
Ang

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sybilsybil45 said...

You really are beautiful, A beautiful face, hairless or otherwise, a beautful nature, just beautiful all round. Keep that positivety going. Love for now Sybil x

inafrnz247 said...

You define beauty, Kim...  In your eyes, in your smile, in your words and in the beautiful heart that you share with the world.  It always warms my heart to read your entries and I am always inspired and awed by your courage, your optimism, your words and your quiet understanding.  

Your son knows you well.

Hugs and blessings,
Michelle

shauneenie said...

Kim..how blessed you are with a son who knows that maybe his mom needed to see her beauty/health.Sometimes we all need to forget our struggles for a bit....Thank you for the blessing you are to us!!Hugs, Shauneen

astoriasand said...

No alert came through for this but I was checking my rounds and found it here.Glad I didn't miss this fantastic picture of you.How wonderful your son is.Just like his mum.Yes you are a picture no doubt about it .I have always thought so since first I saw your face.I am so happy you had a lovely evening out together.Prayers being said thousandfold for your results and always.Take Care God Bless You and all your family.Kath
Astoriasand http://journals.aol.co.uk/astoriasand/MYSIMPLERHYMES

frankandmary said...

In a Monsoon rain, you'd look beautiful.  I prefer you without hair.  I think some faces are so lovely that hair gets in the way.  ~ Mary

ajquinn354 said...

Kim you are one gorgeous lady bald or as goldylocks....whenever you show a picture your face is always aglore and you can see such gentleness and caring in your face and smile. You are in my prayers dear for great news on Thursday...hope you are keeping the medal from my Cuz the Pope with you at all times, can't hurt, that's for sure.   Bless you.....Arlene (AJ)

wayupwhoops said...

Hey how come it's 926 pm over here,¿ oh yes I know my brain cell just activated.

wayupwhoops said...

Well half activated anyway.

mariebm56 said...

You look great with or without hair!!!!  That looks like your own hair & not a wig....& it does look like the young healthy you!   Ü
Hope you had a great time~
Marie

wayupwhoops said...

Hey are you a deutsch speaker¿ marie with your Umlaut (Ü).

wayupwhoops said...

Well I got to go on night shift so all the best to you all Nos da from Wales.

mzgoochi said...

You're so beautiful with or without hair. I got my head shaved today (wish i looked as good as you) and we had a new CA on the floor. I had my mask on and she thought I was a guy. I really wanted to bust her in the chops. LOL

stay strong and never give up.

love you, Lahoma

heavenlybama said...

You are beautiful either way!  Great photo!  Praying for you always.
Hugs,
D
http://journals.aol.com/heavenlybama/journey-to-success

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ab45yui said...

I think you are beautiful and funny, lol.  I love your sense of humor and courage.  

chevyz71gurl74 said...

Kim....your sense of humor gets me everytime girl...lol  
SO sorry I haven't been around lately for some reason i'm not getting any of yours and Trish's alerts....UGH!  Your son is right....you do look gorgeous in the pic....I hope you and Jim had a nice date with no kids ;)  
As always your in my prayers....Hope your having a good week
Hugs,
Terri

purplehazebarn said...

Kim, you CERTAINLY are beautiful woman--goldylocks or no!  Hugs, LaVern

psychfun said...

That beauty is shining...from within! That is the spirit that cancer is by no means effecting! It is like the posting on put on my new journal of the opera singer on the Britian Idol...my niece said he was handsome...that is because she see the beauty within him with the voice he has. Beauty is one's spirit!

http://journals.aol.com/psychfun/MeThinksTooMuch/

My New Journal:

http://journals.aol.com/psychfun/somethingelsetothinkabout/

deutscruber said...

That is a little flaw, leaving out a letter or two now and then like the s that was supposed to be after wishe so I will try again, best wishes to you all, a millionfold.

deutscruber said...

Kim, I would gladly give you my diamond but there is no need, you have already found yours and I can see the glow from over here...

deutscruber said...

Whoops wayupwhoops, I just noticed you nicked my sign Ω and my time drawing too, watch yourself boyo you can hide but you can't hide from me for long if you know what I mean ¿¿ ??? ¿? ??¿ ¿¿¿¿??¿. Only joking of course wayup what's mine is yours as long as you keep in moderation butty.

emabecmar said...

You are beautiful. With or without goldilocks your smile and glow in your eyes shines. I'm keeping good thoughts for thursday news. ((((((((hugs))))))))))
Cindy

thegirlnexdoor77 said...

Beautiful inside and out!  Love ya girlie!  Prayers and Hugs,TerryAnn

misiatscholvik said...

Anyone who was really ill should take it and not crave sympathy from the masses, only people with a shallow mind does that...Are you really ill or is it just a shallow attempt to get silly attention if you are ill be ashamed for sharing misery of pretend bravado, you are silly woman either way.

misiatscholvik said...

oh yeah

littlelady1699 said...

hey "misiatscholvik " go back to your rock and leave Kim alone! may you never have cancer, and if you do get it.. hope you can be as stong,b-u-tiff-ful as kim. she is lovely maybe you should stop the hate and find the heart you might of once had.

patty

bookncoffee said...

Oh you are beautiful.  With Goldilocks or without.  :>)

xbuckhunter1992x said...

you go Bald CHick! XOXOXOXOXOX JImmy

rdautumnsage said...

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aimer said...

you are beautiful, hair or no hair!--Sheria

rbrown6172 said...

you are beautiful....and you have an inner beauty that radiates outward as well.  i'm glad you dressed up to go out with jim....made for a more normal and private evening for the two of you, i'm sure.
gina

debbi4873 said...

Yes, indeed, you are beautiful, both inside and out, golden tresses, or gloriously bald. As for misiatscholvik, I guess I'll have to find her and beat her ass for you.  Sounds like she needs a good ass-whoopin'.  blessings to you, and yours.

gandsbrock said...

Beautiful!  You have the best smile!
Stephanie

sunnyside46 said...

you look glorious vital, healthy and you have the look of someone out to conquer the world.
Love
Marti

slyracing1 said...

misiatscholvik do you have work at being a jerk or does it come naturally to you?  You must be a dark cloud in so many lives... How proud you must be of yourself...  Go rain some where else...

You go Goldylocks... So many are praying and pulling for you here...  Im proud of you...

Sending some energy vibes your way honey...

Hugs with Love Kendra
http://journals.aol.com/slyracing1/Motomom/

pprrrr39 said...

Beautiful picture Kimberleigh......congrats to your son and well done mum for looking so radiant .....keep on shining through
hugs
Jayne