Ok, all of my pre-op tests have been taken care of including an EKG that they managed to sneak me in for this morning. I had to have an EKG, because of that cute little parlor trick I do with "Sick Migraines" (A migraine so bad that you get sick to your stomach) my problem is sometimes, but not every time I pass out and wake up seconds later with my heart in Atrial Fib (which means the bottom of my heart pumps as normal, but the top of my heart just flutters and the danger in that is a blood clot could form and then at any time can shoot either up to my brain or into my lung and possibly kill me instantly........Oh the fun I have huh??
My very ill sense of humor and your good wishes have carried me far these past two weeks, but I know that what lies ahead of me is very serious and will take more than my sense of humor to get me through the next couple of weeks.......this is where I will draw on the love that I have for my Husband Jim and our four children.........I will 'Cowgirl up' to the pain and discomfort that I will be experiencing because of the love that I have here on Earth is sooooo worth fighting for. Humor made it easy to deal with, while I was experiencing all the newness of being diagnosed with breast cancer...........love will keep me fighting like a 'she devil!" (been called that a time or two in my life too!!! lol)
I still have no fear, because I already know I will hurt like hell and be swearing like a sailor when they try to get me up and walking for the first time. I don't think I will be making any new friends my first 36 hours there but, in the end the Kim that I am will shine through and I will be just fine. With Chemo and then possibly radiation waiting for me in the wings, I know that I still have a battle ahead of me and that I will be ill and exhausted, and at times discouraged, but I will never be down for the count.....I will push through it all.... just to be with my Husband Jim, there is no other woman on Earth who could be better at telling him what to do, how to do it and that his driving sucks better than me! ;) and that I want to be here to finish my job in raising my last two remaining children at home. We all know how hard a Momma Bear will fight for her cubs..... and being the raucous Irish woman that I am....I'm ready for this fight.
This is who I am fighting for........
Wednesday I will be admitted to the Hospital and at 1:00 pm my surgery will begin.......I should be home by Saturday sometime....I'll talk to you all soon! Take care of each other!!!!