Monday, August 14, 2006

This is what's worth fighting for......Ü

Ok, all of my pre-op tests have been taken care of including an EKG that they managed to sneak me in for this morning. I had to have an EKG, because of that cute little parlor trick I do with "Sick Migraines" (A migraine so bad that you get sick to your stomach) my problem is sometimes, but not every time I pass out and wake up seconds later with my heart in Atrial Fib (which means the bottom of my heart pumps as normal, but the top of my heart just flutters and the danger in that is a blood clot could form and then at any time can shoot either up to my brain or into my lung and possibly kill me instantly........Oh the fun I have huh??

My very ill sense of humor and your good wishes have carried me far these past two weeks, but I know that what lies ahead of me is very serious and will take more than my sense of humor to get me through the next couple of weeks.......this is where I will draw on the love that I have for my Husband Jim and our four children.........I will 'Cowgirl up' to the pain and discomfort that I will be experiencing because of the love that I have here on Earth is sooooo worth fighting for. Humor made it easy to deal with, while I was experiencing all the newness of being diagnosed with breast cancer...........love will keep me fighting like a 'she devil!" (been called that a time or two in my life too!!! lol)

I still have no fear, because I already know I will hurt like hell and be swearing like a sailor when they try to get me up and walking for the first time. I don't think I will be making any new friends my first 36 hours there but, in the end the Kim that I am will shine through and I will be just fine. With Chemo and then possibly radiation waiting for me in the wings, I know that I still have a battle ahead of me and that I will be ill and exhausted, and at times discouraged, but I will never be down for the count.....I will push through it all.... just to be with my Husband Jim, there is no other woman on Earth who could be better at telling him what to do, how to do it and that his driving sucks better than me! ;) and that I want to be here to finish my job in raising my last two remaining children at home. We all know how hard a Momma Bear will fight for her cubs..... and being the raucous Irish woman that I am....I'm ready for this fight.

This is who I am fighting for........


myguy.jpg My Jim


lissa.jpg My Melissa


Amanda.jpg My Amanda


Copyofrach.jpg My Rachel


jimmybnw.jpg My Jimmy


Wednesday I will be admitted to the Hospital and at 1:00 pm my surgery will begin.......I should be home by Saturday sometime....I'll talk to you all soon! Take care of each other!!!!


 


XOXOX


Kimberleigh

36 comments:

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sangrialel said...

They are some wonderful things to be fighting for Kim!  I will be thinking about you and praying for you! Linda

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perkysgrl said...

(((Kim)))

You and your family will be in my thoughts....

You know exactly what you are fighting for and I believe with all I've got that you'll be all good in the end!!

Cowgirl UP!!

Hugs and Best Wishes,
~Jennifer~
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shayshaydc said...

You have a beautiful family Kim and well worth fighting for!!!! I'll be praying for you as you go through this!!!!! http://journals.aol.com/shayshaydc/Golfaholic
Sharon:)

ashleekr said...

Beautiful family!!!!  I will say a special prayer for you Wednesday morning.  Still fighting with you!
Ash

psychfun said...

Now that is something worth fighting for! ;-) I know you can do it! So many have survived such incredible circumstances, all the hurricanes, holocausts, war injuries etc....so you can do it too! What is that quote..."this time it is personal!" HA! I'm be praying girl! Just let them give you some "nice little drugs" and you can have some fun rather than be in pain for a little while! HA! Just for a tad!

queeniemart said...

What a beautiful family and you are so beautiful too...you are in my prayers and thoughts.....always.
lisa

xomywayox said...

wow what beautiful family to fight. Love & Best Wishes to ya. I'm missing you already. Can't wait to hear from you again.


Love Brenda

caromarls said...

I agree with you Kim - your family is worth fighting for. I'll just bet that they are all as beautiful on the inside as they are on the outside.  Our thoughts and prayers will be with you, sister.  Keep strong and don't chase too many nurses away!  We luv ya!  Caroline
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pharmolo said...

Keep your spirits up - you know what's coming your way. You've got a great family to support you, and support is what you gonna need very much.

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ajquinn354 said...

Kim, a beautiful family there, you are one lucky lady.   Hang in there my dear,  you are in my thoughts and prayers. Will be waiting to hear how you are....Take care.....Bless you......Arlene (AJ)

pippa1116 said...

your family is gorgeous.  just beautiful.  Just like you are. i will be praying for you all the way through this.  tina  

imshadowraven2 said...

I will be on my knees(lol) praying for you my gutsy friend . I know you have lots to live for and lots and lots of things to experience yet. Just remember there will be less ass and more perky to do it with ............love ya Robin

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wipforever said...

An EKG is pretty standard before surgery, along with a chest x-ray, and a lot of bloodwork.  It's to make sure that you're fit to have surgery and that nothing was overlooked.  

I love the pics of your family!  Gorgeous kids and handsome hubby :)  Your girls look like they could be models.  Obviously, they get it from you. :)

I don't have to tell you how much we're praying for you, Kim.  Just try to go easy on the nurses, okay?  Some of them actually got into it because they really do like to take care of people.  LOL!  (pssst - the secret to getting out of the hospital is to be able to eat most of your meals, take all of your meds, walk without assistance, and pee on command!)

When it comes to chemo, don't forget to ask your Oncologist about anti-nausea medication like Zofran or phenergan.  One thing I've noticed that they don't usually talk about as a side effect is a sensitivity to scents.  My MIL and uncle both couldn't stand perfumes, or hairspray, or even deodorant on another person.  So, you might want to ask doc about that as well, when you get to that bridge.  

Looking forward to some good-news updates on you soon!  

Love,
Sheila

lifes2odd said...

My thoughts and prayers are with you and your beautiful family.
Martha :-)

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mpnaz58 said...

Kim, sending prayers to you and your family.  You are a courageous woman, not only for knowing what you're facing, but in your effort and determination to be there for your family.  Take care...
xoxo ~Myra

missy92980 said...

Lots of hugs and love coming your way from me and mine...

You will be just fine, and rocking those nurses socks off, I'm sure! :D

Looking forward to hearing from you via your journal again sooooon!

HUGS!
Missy92980

dwhee70041 said...

Kim,  You have such a great attitude.  I know you will overcome the pain and discomfort.  We are all praying for you, your family and the surgeon.  Best wishes from your supporters in Colorado.  David

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thinkingoutloud said...

Kimbeleigh,

You are truly blessed to have such a beautiful family.  
God will see you thru this and you will come thru stronger and better for it.  If that's possible:));the stronger and better part.

I will be sending you all my Italian vibs.  My Mom always said that the Irish and Italian belong together.  Not really sure what she means but hey...if the shoe fits...why not wear it?!?!?

Extra special prayers and love going out for you-
Niki

aniracj said...

Take care and I wish you well for a speedy recovery. Love Joan
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katie39041 said...

Your family are certainly worth fighting for, god bless you and your family you are all in my prayers and thoughts.
ove and hugs
katie

sunflowerkat321 said...

My thoughts and prayers will be with you every step of the way.  Please let your family know, I'll bet thinking about them too.

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cneinhorn said...

thinking of you, hoping for you, praying for you.  you will pull through, but also take this time to just be....be sad, scared, hurt, mad....whatever, take this time for you and fight for yourself and your beautiful family.  blessings to you kimberleigh.  

astaryth said...

Looks like some pretty good reasons for fighting to me!!! {{{{{{{{hugs}}}}}}}}}

bpcorn48 said...

Don't lose your sense of humor , it can go a LONG WAYS....I hope you all the luck in the world and with your hubby and those kids I know you will be in GOOD hand,,,, You will be in many heart on these few days and hope the best for you, DIANE

schoolgal040 said...

Hello,
Tomorrow and always I will be thinking and praying for you. Your humor will be one of your best friends in the coming days, weeks and months of recovery. Looks like one great looking family!

Hugs,
Gayla
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dreamingbrwneyes said...

Saying some extra prayers, I can't think of better reasons to fight for.
~ Jenny

lanurseprn said...

You have a LOT to fight for and you will do it!
Pamela