So here I sit a little after 5:30 a.m.......the alarm was set for 7:00 a.m. I guess I was a lil too anxious for this morning to get here. Yesterday was kinda weird, I kind of hit a brick wall physically, I was sleepy all day, but had very little time for a quick nap in the late afternoon. One question I keep getting asked is if I am sad that I am loosing my left breast....the answer is NO! It's trying to take my life, why on earth would I want to keep it? My Doctor's were so happy that they didn't have to talk me outta of trying to save it.....take the damn thing, it's deadly, and for the life of me I can't understand why they would have to argue or talk someone into having it removed??? Why keep it attached to my body, when I already know it's diseased and very deadly right?? Not one tumor, but EIGHT at last count!!!!
What keeps me giggling up until now was for the past 4 months, there I was at the gym, working out 2 to 3 times a week, watching what I was eating just to whittle down to shape that I used to have.... I was very successful at loosing some inches in some pretty key areas, but my Mother's Tummy was more stubborn than I was....and because of that fact, that is what will be used to help recreate my new left breast.....everything for a reason again huh? The skin that will be removed to cover the newly in place left breast (via tram flap) is just the right size to be a perfect fit and what ever is left over they will trim away and tummy tuck! Good-bye to the small, (But I know they are there stretch marks from Motherhood) and good-bye to that little bitty uneven scar under my belly button from when I had my tubes tied in 1992. Hmmmm flat, tight little tummy and waist again and waaaaa laaaaaa! No more problem area! lol
I'll be admitted today at 10:00 a.m, put in my RED CARPET hospital gown....designer unknown! lol and then at 10:45 I will be given a valium to be carted away for my Sentinel Node Biopsy Linky ~~~> Breast Cancer Surgery article: Sentinel Node Procedure then it's a waiting game to see if the Sentinel Nodes light up like a blue platespecial at your local K-Mart to see if the cancer has spread to the sentinel nodes.....no blue, no other lymph nodes taken.......blue sentinel and then it's up into the armpit to take out the smaller lymph nodes to see if cancer has at least spread to that area.
I still haven't received the radiologist reading ( Official report) of the bone scan and cat scan (maybe later today) to make sure or reassure me what the Oncologist (Dr. Serious) told me on Friday.....( He sees no evidence that it has spread to any other part of my body and bones) Happy Dance again everyone!
Dr. Hollywood's office (Plastic surgeon) called today to tell me that I will be in the hospital at least until Sunday now.......now 4 days of hospital food ought to be in my favor as far as the scale is concerned! lol Since diagnosis, I was still watching what I was eating, working out at the gym and then I had an epiphany........STOP THE WORK OUT GIRL! KEEP THAT BELLY! YOU'RE GONNA NEED ALL OF IT FOR THAT NEW PERKY BOOB! So I have to admit, I ate without guilt and didn't visit the gym since Saturday morning! Another perk to breast cancer I guess! lol lol lol
I am hoping that my nextel (cell, two-way radio and wireless internet access) will be able to get a signal in the hospital, and if so I can read emails, but answering them old fashioned way via text messaging will drive me crazy....So I can read my comments and just a part of the journals I have on my alerts. But I think I won't even know my own name for the first few days post-op....I'm in good hands with my A-TEAM of Doctors and I'm in loving hands with my Husband at my side.
Life is Beautiful and I am thankful!