Tuesday, August 7, 2007

Hiya!...long time no keyboard! lol

I think might be the longest I've ever stayed away from my blog! I'm still trying to adjust to my new chemo, not as harsh as the A,C and T that they give you when you are first diagnosed with breast cancer but not as easy as the Xeloda. The first week they gave me back to back treatments to get a jump start..that was a Monday, I didn't wake up till Thursday......seriously! Whenever I woke up it was day light but I didn't know if it was A.M. or P.M. I lost 7 pounds in my sleep even though Jim tried everything to get me to eat including calling in the reinforcements! lol Mom, Sister, Brother....2nd chemo was only 1 dose.......not so much a coma that week....still tasted buds are M.I.A :( 3rd week just blood work but they already had to reduce my chemo....blood count dropped enough to warrant it. So I'm hoping by the this time next week I'm settled into a routine with the new chemo/sleep....I still lose my words (very frustrating), I still lose my voice after each chemo session....So just when I start to have some really good days ( bad days aren't bad at all...not sick just sleepy...how hard is that right?? lol lol lol) ..... its chemo time again! lol Other than that we just did tumor marker tests yesterday and I won't know the results of those until next Monday... So once again I throw my faith, trust and hope into a new batch of chemo and hope 3rd time is the charm!

I'm going to be going up north soon and I can't wait!.....Bald Eagles, Northern Lights, friends we only get to see once a year and I hope by then I will regained enough of my strength that I carelessly gave away. It's weird, I've never gone that long without almost proper (I'm bad) nourishment and how fast it attacks the body and the mind...everything gets weak on you, your muscles, your eyesight, your mind plays tricks on you....so many times I thought I heard things I didn't, seen things that weren't there! Some of it was pretty funny but it had Jim worried enough that he took off last Friday because he thought he was going to have to hospitalize me for dehydration and maybe a feeding tube. I'm not going to let myself do that again....fridge is stocked with ensure, boost, carnation instant breakfast and moose tracks ice cream! lol.....vanilla of course!

Well, I'm going to try and catch up on journals....I turned a majority of them off when I was in Kentucky last month so I wouldn't be overwhelmed when I got back and I haven't been on the computer since right before my 1 year anniversary with cancer.......July 27, 2006....I thought I would have a hard time with that, but I didn't, just another day.......besides I have something better to spend my thoughts in.......my wedding anniversary is tomorrow and I have way more than a year to go through and realize all that I have been blessed with.....starting with the Man I married......My Jim....blessed indeed!


I have also been very fortunate to have the best insurance which covers my whole treatment....which leaves me with a trail and error of prescriptions...half used.....so many people could use this medicine....does anyone know a program that will take my old meds and give them to those less fortunate (which means FREE) I know my girlfriend was able to do that with her shots while trying to get pregnant....once she was pregnant they gave those shots to couples who didn't have the best of insurance or who's insurance didn't cover trying to get pregnant at all.....any info would be helpful!


Love,


K.

66 comments:

topazscorpio27 said...

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nhd106 said...

Good to see you around...what a tough run  you had.  
Happy Anniversary a day early!  You have much to celebrate with that man!

Love,
Nancy

wwfbison said...

It sounds like quite a road you've travelled this time.  It's good to see you again!  I hope you have an enjoyable time up North & your appetite picks up for you.
Take good care & know you are in my Prayers.
Lisa
http://journals.aol.com/wwfbison/life-on-a-bison-farm

thegirlnexdoor77 said...

I was praying for ya...thought you might need some rest...I will keep on praying friend...take care of your self...don't over do it!  Am glad you were able to update...Gentle hugs and many prayers daily for you...I know once should be enough...but I pray many times a day for you and will til you whip this thing!  TerryAnn

bmorrrick said...

Hi Kim!

It was GREAT to hear from you!  I'm sorry you've had such a rough time, and hope things get better for you and that you get a good report on Monday.  Congrats a day early on your anniversary.....how many years will it be?  You have a great hubby there, and he's one lucky man to have you also.  You might ask your doctors offices about the medicine.  They probably have patients with cancer also and might know the financial circumstances of who could use a little help.  I know it would make you feel great to be able to help someone like that.  Your upcoming trip sounds wonderful, I sure hope you feel better and can totally enjoy the experience.  I'm keeping you and your family in my prayers hon.

Take Care,
~Bilinda~

wildflowersea said...

So happy to see you back here. :) You are in my thoughts and prayers.
Take care,
~Annie

kirkbyj05 said...

There you are my lovely 'Irish Eyes'.  I see you have been having it a wee bitty rough... to say the least...yes?   You are certainly a tough cookie.  One to be admired for her strength and determination to beat this sucker cancer.
You can hit it on the head for me too whilst you are at it.  I guessed you were experiencing a rough ride this time; but just think of what it is doing to our enemy...haha!
You  know that you and your family are often in my thoughts and always in my prayers.  I have asked for friends on a prayer web site to pray for you also.  We need all the help we can get in this battle.
Its nice to see that you have found some energy to make an entry.  I so admire you for that.  It can't have been easy for you from the symptoms and side effects you have described.  You are a special lady, of that there is no doubt.  Stay well and strong.
Hugs  Jeanie xxxx

kirkbyj05 said...

Oops!    Happy Anniversary to you and your 'Special Man'.  All the very best to you both.
Jeanie  xx

cgtperkins said...

You might want to check with churches that go on mission trips to provide medical care in other countries. I know that we always need meds.....Dr's go with us, but we also have to take any meds with us for treatment. All of our care is free to the people and we rely on donations completely. I hope all is going well with your treatments, I certainly will continue to remember you in my thoughts and prayers. Happy Anniversary!!!
Hugs
Carrie

sdoscher458 said...

It's good to hear you. I figured you needed your strength and that you were resting and letting the chemicals work their magic. I'm sorry that your taste buds are burnt right now..I know how hard that makes it to eat.  But please force yourself, what about really really good smelling foods? Can that sense overcome the other? Still praying for a swift recovery and cure....love, Sandi

thinkingoutloud said...

You are incredible.  It would be fantastic if the world could just channel into your attitude and outlook.
Absolutely amazing.

Lots of love, blessings & moose tracks,(vanilla of course:)to you!
Niki ; )

mariebm56 said...

HAPPY ANNIVERSARY TO BOTH OF YOU!!!
Glad you were able to keep us updated.
Hope you feel more like yourself real soon~(you definitely sound like yourself) Ü
Marie

thinkingoutloud said...

P.S.  Your doctors office should be able to offer your unused meds to those who cannot afford the.  Ask 'em next time.
Enjoy your trip:)

xoxoxo
Niki

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dwhee70041 said...

Kim,
It's so good to hear from you.  Your fridge sounds like our pantry.  We stocked up heavy for my MIL.  It's been a year now since we lost her and the supply is starting to dwindle.

Happy anniversary to you and Jim.
Smiles,
David

astoriasand said...

Oh I am so happy to read this posting tonight.I cannot tell you just how happy I do feel I am estatic.I have been thinking about you none stop.You get that food stocked up Kim and try whatever you can strength goes in at the mouth and you will need it.You are wonderwoman and I am so inspired by all you have been through and still saying I am going to catch up in J/land.he-he I have to laugh at you.Carry on girl keep going ." A VERY HAPPY ANNIVERSARY " to you and Jim for tomorrow and looking forward to hearing from you again soon.Prayers still being said thousandfold.I do hope the meds you have spare will be useful to someone.How kind is that of you.This posting has made my day.You are an Angel.Take Care God Bless Kath
astoriasand http://journals.aol.co.uk/astoriasand/MYSIMPLERHYMES

ma24179 said...

Good luck to you and I pray that your next treatment will help.- Missy

ma24179 said...

Good luck to you and I pray that your next treatment will help.- Missy

sybilsybil45 said...

Dear Kim  this is sure a RED LETTER day for us.. just to get your so welcome news.  Keep up the good work.  Have a lovely day with that wonderful man of yours tomorrow. and keep looking forward to the holiday up North.  God Bless always  Much Love  Sybil xxxx

justplainbill said...

Kimberleigh, good to hear from you again. Sorry you are having time of it right now.
Hope you enjoy the trip to the mountains. It will be good for you. Enjoy the sun rises and sunsets they are the best.
Prayers and love to you, Bill

Happy anniversity to the both of you.

ajquinn354 said...

Kim, just so happy to hear from you dear and know you are getting along as well as can be with the chemo....lost 7 lbs. that's great, but could you find a better way of doing that then being zonked out from your chemo dear. Here's hping you get good tumor market tests results dear. Know you'll enjoy your visit with your friends when yu head North.  Wishing you and Jim a Happy Anniversary, you two have been through a lot, but your love for each other gets better each day, you both truly are blessed. Just so glad to see your words dear, have been checking daily and keeping you in my thoughts and prayers as always.  Hugs being sent to you Kim....Arlene (AJ)

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am4039 said...

you poor thing, You are going through so much. I'm so sorry the chemo is making you so tired. I know this trip will be good and hope you have a great time. What a great thing if you can give your meds to people who need it. I hope there is something like that. Thank heaven for good insurance. Hugs to you

rgossett4195 said...

Kim, I want you to know that because of you I went and got my way over due Mammogram yesterday.  I have had 3 surgeries to remove calcifications in the past 8 years.  Thank God my mammogram  was negative yesterday.  I think of you often and when you don't post we all worry and wonder.  I pray for your full recovery!  You are wise to realize that you must take in nourishment to keep out of the hospitial.  When I had all my surgeries I was more worried for my husband and not myself.  Please take care of yourself hon!  my best!  rose

tendernoggle said...

HAPPY ANNIVERSARY KIM! HOPE YOU HAVE A BLESSED DAY!
I am so glad that you are not experiencing the sickness with this chemo...please try to eat little bitty bites every now and then to try to keep your strength up...I know Jim was worried about you...we use to have a free clinic called the Good Samaritan Clinic that would take the medicines and give them to those that can not afford them....maybe yall have one in your area?
I hope you can find someone to take them. I am so happy to hear from you again...I have been so worried...
God bless and keep you...
love ya,
carlene

canyonsun04 said...

PLEASE PLEASE make sure you take advantage of the nutritional shakes and ice cream you know how important it is. :) Enjoy the northern lights they are beautiful! And ask your dr. about those med programs he will likely be able to direct you.
Hugs
Ang

shauneenie said...

hIYA BACK! loNG TIME NO READ! HAPPY ANNIVESARY 4 2M! HAVE A BLESSED TIME ....IN MY PRAYERS.LOVE AND HUGS, SHAUNEEN (((((KIM)))))

shoot4mephoto said...

God Heals

Remember when you heard the words -
and your mind went blank - you were in another world
God heals
Remember in your darkest hours -
when all that surrounds you is pain and sorrow
God heals
Remember friends' prayers - your family's encouragement
- glimmers of hope from everyday angels
God heals
Quiet...you can hear Him now -
always there - yet never this close
God heals
It's just another day -
yet everything has changed - and you hear yourself say
God heals
Birds are singing -
the sky is a beautiful blue - flowers are blooming...
God heals
Truths that you knew as a child -
awakened again with new understanding
God heals
Remember when others can't -
that life is a gift - each day to treasure
God Has Healed

redsneakz said...

Keep being strong.  I'm in awe of you.

faithmtn said...

Happy Anniversary to you and your husband! May you be restored to full, whole, vibrant health. Moose tracks ice cream, YUM! The breakfast of champions! hehehe

lindaggeorge said...

I hope so much this treatment is having the desired result. Jim is your rock, you are blessed.

We are recovering from the floods here, our house just escaped being flooded, what went on the garden was scary and one of my photos ended up on the telly. I nearly got myself killed rescuing my chickens!

But, all is calm now.

I saw the Northern lights once here, its rare to see them so far South. Dad got me out of bed to see. It was magical.

Hope to hear good news from your next results.

Love,

Linda x.

http://journals.aol.co.uk/lindaggeorge/GeorgeMansions/

jckfrstross said...

Happy Anniversary:) what year? stay strong and may God Bless you

Deb

gandsbrock said...

Happy Anniversary.  I hope you wake up long enough to enjoy it.  :-)  Shall we start calling you Rip Van Winkle?  We don't want you fading away, so wake up every so often and eat!!  As far as meds go, when I was doing the infertility thing, my doctor was happy to take back the unused meds and needles.  And I was happy to pass it along to help relieve the expense to others.

Take care,  Stephanie

mosie1944 said...

You're in my thoughts and prayers.

gosso23 said...

I am praying that this round of chemo goes smoothly for you. I am thinking about you everyday.  I donated my unused shots back to the cancer center. They said they can always use it for the people who come in that are unisured.
Have a wonderful anniversary.
Take care,
Trish

frankandmary said...

You'd better start eating ice cream every hour to build yourself up for the marathon anniversary sex. Just sayin' ~Mary oxoxo

ladyvictoriak said...

I'm thrilled to hear from you.  Sounds like you'll be able to handle the treatments pretty well.  Good luck on Monday with the results of the tumor makers I hope they are down, down and down.   Congrats on your anniversary.

Viki

gitterdunna said...

TRULY HOPE & PRAY FOR YOUR VERY SPEEDY RECOVERY.

princesssaurora said...

I don't know but the chemo angel organization might know about sharing the meds...

{{{ Kim }}}  Eat girl... drink too!  Gotta keep that strength up!  Sending you prayers of love, strength, and that this chemo works... keep us posted...  we are with you.  In spirit...

be well,
Dawn
http://journals.aol.com/princesssaurora/CarpeDiem/

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fasttrack58 said...

Happy Anniversary!!!
Moose Track Ice Cream all around....
Linda :)

ab45yui said...

I've been wondering where you've been, glad to see you back.  I hope you enjoy your trip and anniversary!  Keeping you in my prayers kiddo, God Bless!

sugerb6 said...

Happy Anniversary Kim & Jim!!! It's great to see an entry from you. Keeping you and your family in my thoughts and prayers.
Debbie

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dplkjl said...

I was SO happy to see an update from you.  I was getting a little nervous about you!  Happy to hear from you!  I know there is a Nicks Law out there that addressed exactly what you want to do - donate unused prescriptions.  I know it a lot of states are in the process of getting bills passed to have the state be allowed to handle this.  I think Colorado and Wisconsin are two that have it together the best.  There is a state rep (Karen May) in Ill. that is either in the process of getting this done in your state or has had it passed.  You can e mail her requesting info.  On her web page it states her e mail address is karenmay58@aol.com  Just like you thinking of others!  :)  Keep the fight going Kimberleigh! -Kelly

plieck30 said...

Happy Anniversary to you both. Paula

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icewitch96 said...

Glad to see you posting!! Was getting worried about you!!  You're in my prayers and Happy Anniversery!

Love,

Jenn

lilysparadise said...

Hope you enjoy your holiday, and here's wishing you a wonderful Wedding Anniversary too!
Sincerely, Rose~*

psychfun said...

So glad to hear from you. I had been wondering how you are doing. Sleep ahhhh...as I'm up now at 3am as you can see! HA! Prayers always with you.

http://journals.aol.com/psychfun/MeThinksTooMuch/

http://journals.aol.com/psychfun/somethingelsetothinkabout/

danpat923 said...

Hope the next steps of the chemo don't get you down.  But please try to eat as much as you can to keep your stenght.  I told my friend about you (she has salivary gland cancer after breast) but I haven't shared your journal yet.  I think you and her have the great wisdom to keep faith and a sense of humor about it all.  Keep the faith and keep us posted ....

ranchbossmom said...

There she is! SUPERGIRL!!! Ta ta Da!!!!
Hugs to you and SUPERMAN too!
Keep the Faith! So proud of you!

astaryth said...

I was just starting to worry about you.... glad to see a post! I was figuring you were just exhausted from the restart of chemo, and so tried to just not worry too much and just keep sending the positive energy instead of freaking ;p   And, not only do I get an entry, but an entry that reminds me how special you really are. Here you are going thru all of this and you are worried about trying to get your left-over medicine to someone who needs it. So like you! {{{{Hugs}}}}

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topchelseagirl said...

So great to hear from you Kim. Happy Anniversary to you both! I hope you have a wonderful trip, you really deserve it. How amazing of you to be thinking of others when fighting such a tough battle of your own. Thank god we don't have to worry about insurance, the NHS may not be perfect but at least everyone gets free treatment. Sending good thoughts and vibes your way.
Angie
x

heavenlybama said...

It was so nice to get an alert from you!  Happy Anniversary to you and Jim!  Keeping you in my thoughts and prayers always!
Hugs,
D
http://journals.aol.com/heavenlybama/journey-to-success

jg4949 said...

I was so happy to see your entry today. You are always upbeat.  Bless you.

jeane

abaleman666 said...

after reading your blog and deciding my problems are petty you are my new hero--- fight that beast!


abaleman666/boysaremean.

emabecmar said...

july 2004 is when i found the lump in my neck which turned out to be cancer. have a wonderful time up north. i hope test results are good ones. ((((((Hugs)))))))
Cindy

loverobin32 said...

Your journal helps me so much to give my dad the encouragement to keep fighting his Cancer. HAPPY ANNIVERSARY TODAY!!!!! Take care of you...Hugggs, Robin
http://journals.aol.com/loverobin32/i-went-to-sleep-a-navy-wife-and-/

preciousone25 said...

Happy Anniversary!!!  What a great idea to donate the leftover meds!!  Hope you find a place!!

Joann

jmorancoyle said...

    Happy wedding anniversary. My prayers are for many more to come your way. Take care of yourself and do what you have to.
Jude
http://journals.aol.com/jmorancoyle/MyWay

mzgoochi said...

Wish I could go up North with you guys. I hope you're feeling well enough to enjoy every day if it Kim.
I used to say that I wanted to go see the Northern lights before I died and then one year in Va, they came to me. It was the scariest, most amazing thing I had ever seen. Before and after we learned what it was, I was singing, "it's the end of the world as we know it." LOL

I hope you both had a very happy anniversary.

love you and God bless you.

Lahoma

mutualaide said...

A day late and a dollar short here ... been off the computer myself for ... oh, I dunno, weeks it seems.   But think of you daily and was happy to read your update.  I do hope you are feeling a bit better and well enought to go north and enjoy your trip.

Hugs, hugs and hugs along with my prayers -- your way.

pprrrr39 said...

Kim.....Hope you have a good time up North.... You deserve a break

hugs Jayne

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