Tuesday, May 22, 2007

Some kind of freedom.....

Well, I just spent the last hour sitting outside under one of our tall birch tree's plucking my head hairless......With my Youngest Daughter Rachel by my side and Jim and lil Jimmy checking in on me telling me that I am beautiful and not having hair makes no difference....made for a quiet acceptance that I am once again bald.....a few tears fell but with a few hugs from my baby girl, the trials and tribulations seem sacred. There is a freedom knowing that you are going to lose your hair (once again) and knowing that it will come back again when it's ready. I chose not to buzz it, but let it come out at the root as to with the hopes that if it all came out follicle and all at the same time, it might just grow back in at the same pace instead of here there and everywhere......weird part is that just at the nape of my neck where the radiation didn't reach that hair won't pull out with a crow bar....I have fringe! lol


I'll post a new pic with my bad, bald self soon.....Rachel told me my eyes are even more beautiful when I don't have hair.........how cute is she??? What a sight we must of been sitting on the bench grooming myself like a baboon, letting the wind carry my hair where ever the four winds blow...I feel at peace now knowing that it's all over and new hair can start coming back.

46 comments:

sybilsybil45 said...

My dear Kim,   I hope all the little birds will sleep well tonight with their little nests lined with your beautiful hair.....  It was so good to have the family sit by you today.  I am just about to go to bed. It has been a lovely day here in Wiltshire England.  Much Love  sybilsybil45

mawmellow said...

Your friend from England took the words right out of my mouth about the birds will be using your hair in their nests.  Rachel is right....you are beautiful no matter what.  Big hugs to my sweet sister !  I love you.  

ktkamanski said...

Fringe or a small tail! I think bald is beautiful especially when its worn with a spirit such as yours! What a child, to help Mom find her freedom. Hope your days that lye ahead are filled with happiness to go with that new found freedom! Take care of you!

mariebm56 said...

Rachel is right, you do have beautiful eyes & face....you don't need hair!
Ü  More important, you have a beautiful heart.
Peace~
Marie

pharmolo said...

Your beauty is on the inside, Kim. It radiates to the outside.

deshelestraci said...

You have the bravery of a five star general.
Traci

klconard1 said...

((((((hugs))))))) what courage you have!  The birds are gonna love that hair for building nests!
loving you
karyl

ladyvictoriak said...

Awwww, when you have so little control over what's going on having the choice when you go bald does feel very good.  I saw a picture of you when your hair was just coming back and you are beautiful - with or without hair.  Just keep hanging in there Kim - you are doing great.  

Viki

mutualaide said...

Such courage Kim and I can't help but think that Mother Nature's darling birds will have a piece of you with them through the summer ... and that's another gift from you to the world.  

jckfrstross said...

good for you:) stay strong:) keeping you in prayer

Deb

gandsbrock said...

I can't believe you plucked it!  Did you get a picture of your fuzz before the plucking?  I've heard of some ladies using duct tape to get the bits off.  Your family sounds as sweet as you.
Take care,  Stephanie

cvgflydis said...

Hiya Kim~
Thanks for finding the stength to sit at the computer for US, the rest of the world!  Days that you aren't blogging, puts me into withdrawal and worry.....then you pop back in with your Muhammad Ali gloves on, smacking the keys!  God be with ya girl~I know this is hard.   Angel
http://journals.aol.com/cvgflydis/angels-thoughts/

ldybutterfly1128 said...

Kim,

Sending big hugs your way.  You are so wonderful.  Thank you for the inspiration.  Your spirit is so strong.  What a blessing you are.

God Bless You, Kim.  I'm still praying for you my friend.

Love,

Jamie

easteeleco said...

A very touching entry.  How magnificent to make an event of something that is going to happen anyway.  I applaud you and your beautiful family.  Hugs, Estela

tendernoggle said...

"OUT OFTHE MOUTHS OF BABES"...your children are very smart.....They see their mama's soul shining through this physical body we are given....and it is far more beautiful than any mirror, or camera can ever show, Kim ......
love ya my friend,
carlene

sdoscher458 said...

Shining eyes to match
a shining soul.
Cherished by love,
you soon will be whole.
Blonde hair flies like
glossamer wings.
Our brave warrior fighting
the good fight as your heart
sings.
Fight on....

Love, Sandi

midwestvintage said...

 Lovely entry.  I think it is important to involve your children in this, how it must help her, and you.  Take care.

                  Julie

canyonsun04 said...

My MIL had one of those "rat tails" we called it, she said she felt like "furby". LOL
I can picture you all on the bench twittling through your hair as is flys away. Ibet your eyes are prettier without the competition. Do you watch "Greys Anatomy"? THe Chinese girl had her eye brows shaved off, WOW, now that was something!
Hugs
Ang

gosso23 said...

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pippa1116 said...

i am trying to think of something profound to say in response to this entry but I can't.  it is just too bittersweet.

ginsherer said...

When I had chemo, I lost my eyelashes, eyebrows, pubic hair, leg & underarm hair.......... and just the hair at the front of my scalp...I had to shave the sides and back...go figure.  My lashes came back, but my eyebrows still aren't right...oh well...Hang in there lady...you will make it.  Ginny

redsneakz said...

You might have fringe, but please, for the love of all that is holy...

No Comb-overs.

--sneakz

imshadowraven2 said...

Its amazing how the little things in life are what gets us through........lots of love Robin

lisa41076 said...

Kim, you are in my thoughts always, Hugs Lisa

roxzee1 said...

Aren't kids the most wonderful little creatures...the things they say...so sweet that she went through the hair plucking experience with you..another memory to cherish..keeping you and yours in my thoughts and prayers Kim!

frankandmary said...

Sinead O'Connor look out. ~Mary

rdautumnsage said...

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plieck30 said...

I see the picture pretty lady. Paula

princesssaurora said...

Your beauty shines from within, through your eyes, your heart, your hands and your words.  And, nothing is lost via internet connex!!  :)  I can hear the peace in you... Sending prayers and hugs... and love.  You are a treasure!

be well,
Dawn
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psychfun said...

"Who Loves Ya Baby" HA!

So if we find some hair what do we win? :-) Maybe it will be like the feather in Forest Gump floating everywhere! :-)

As I drove home today, pushing back the tears, after hearing I do need back surgery & that even with that I have other disks that are degenerating quite a bit & they don't want to upset those so they will do the minimal they can, I thought I'm still ok that others are being so strong with so much more. You are so inspiring!

jmorancoyle said...

    Your styling here. The fringe will be all the rage in the next few months when all those young chickies see how great you look. They'll be trying to imitate your wide eyed beauty. Take care.
Jude
http://journals.aol.com/jmorancoyle/MyWay

lazarai said...

With or without hair, you are still one of the most beautiful people I've ever "met" online....

Warrior on, Kimberleigh!!!!!

Carol

queeniemart said...

Hair does not make the woman and you are beautiful, inside and out!
Love, lj

ashleekr said...

Hair or no hair, you have a beautiful soul...and that is what REALLY counts!
Ash

chat2missie said...

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katie39041 said...

YOUR ONE SPECIAL LADY.
your in my thoughts and prayers
katie

nhd106 said...

Much love to you....

Nancy

dplkjl said...

When I read the line in your entry where you wrote that you let the wind carry your hair to where ever the four winds blow, I felt such a freeing feeling for you.  It is so symbolic!  Maybe it is age, and with age comes wisdom, but I don't connect hair to beauty any longer.  Beauty comes from the spirit and it has been a long time since I have seen someone with such a beautiful soul.  I think it was a touching moment with you and your daughter and it means so much and I am sure it meant so much to you when she said it makes your eyes even more beautiful.  That comment goes deeper than a compliment. I believe we are all put here for a reason, and I am starting to think your reason is because you add so much beauty to the world...now that is ironic!  A bald chick that can spread beauty better than any super model out there! :) YOU GO KIMBERLEIGH!

ajquinn354 said...

Kim, all the pictures of you I've seen to date show one gorgeous lady with a smile and twinkle in your eyes that would light up the world dear. Keep the spirit, enjoy your day....Hugs to you.....Arlene (AJ)  

shauneenie said...

Dearest Kimberleigh....You are such a blessing to us and I know your children have an amazing mother they are proud of!!!Love to you! Shauneen xxxxx

mzgoochi said...

Well, even though I don't have much as it is, I'll be joining you in the relm of baldness all too soon.

Love ya Kim.

Lahoma

olachiaclan said...

How precious are those that surround you Kim. You are just as precious.
C
http://journals.aol.com/olachiaclan/the-uniboob-club/

cgtperkins said...

What a beautiful thing for your daughter to say to you!! Im glad that you have a supportive family, they sound just great!!
Hugs
Carrie

tjexpressions said...

Had to come check in on you....I see that you are meeting all these challenges head on.
I stand on my chair..arms waving SALUTE your strength and attitude.
I am sure there are many dark moments but for the most part you continue to look forward...Love to you my friend.
Love to you and yours
TJ

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sunnyside46 said...

just think where that hair might go....parts of you everywhere...makes the world a better place....we need more Kim!
Marti