Friday, May 11, 2007

Coping with cancer...at least I think I am


I think I am finally dealing with the betrayal of my cancer never leaving my body, I gave a breast, I gave my life's blood and I went through 4 months of hell called chemotherapy.....I did it for me, my Jim, my Kids and my Family and friends....I did it because I believed  that I could be one the lucky ones that only had to deal with this once in my lifetime....I found out way toooo soon that this was not to be true.

Here I was barely 3 months out of treatment and all the time the cancer cells were multiplying and multiplying...then after a 6 day stay in the hospital I find out that it has already spread to my lungs, my spine and my brain.....I do not ask "Why Me?" There is no answer to that question....what I am having a hard time understanding is why is it trying so hard to take me from those I love? With cancer there are only two sides to fall on.....the ones that live after their diagnosis and the ones that don't.....I thought I knew which side I was going to land on....I am struggling so hard this time around emotionally......I am a strong woman, I know that...what I am having a hard time doing is going deeper for more of my fighting nature to keep battling with the strength that I did in the beginning....before it was just a breast, now it's every breath I take, it's the broken thought processes that I am now experiencing, it's the fear that every pain I feel I think to myself is that cancer? has it spread to that part of me too?

I have to admit I am weaker this time around but that does NOT mean I am giving up, I am just staying in my head a lil longer than usual....there (in my head) is where I remember who I am and where I came from and all that I have had to endure to get me to where I am today....that is where I find the warrior in me....give me some time and I will find her again....right now I need to just be quiet, just be still and rest. There are quite a number of reasons I am exhausted....cancer itself for one, chemo (again) radiation and every smell makes me want to get sick...nothing sounds good enough for me to eat, so when I do eat I am making healthier choices.....plenty of fresh fruit, raw vegetables, for protein I eat string cheese and to make sure I get enough vitamins and nutrients I am drinking slim fasts.

Today I will complete my first week of radiation.....I hate it because for a few minutes I am strapped to a table by my face and head under a mask, but once that machine kicks on and I hear the noise that the radiation or machine makes I feel like jumping up and screaming die you bastards die......not the tech's....the cancer cells! lol Today is also my first whole day off of chemo....I get a week off and then probably back on again for two weeks. I hope I get some of my strength back this weekend....all I want to do now is sleep on and off all day, so I do.

I want this treatment to work this time.......they say after cancer all you have left is hope.....I don't want hope if it's false hope, I don't want the rest of my life to always be about treatment....I want some of the joy and the happiness that I had before cancer...when I am sick...I am weak, but I still throw those pills down my throat twice a day, I still show up for the radiation, I still make and keep all Doctor appointments and I still want to kick cancers ass. Right now I need time to rest, time for my family...if I don't return a phone call or an email or a two way, it's not that you aren't important to me because you all are, you're my rocks.....it's just that I need time in my safe place....my head and Jim's arms.

This is my journey, this is my life.

95 comments:

sybilsybil45 said...

Keep up the  journey, My strength , my love, hopes prayers  are all with you, Take all the rest you can. I only wish I could take some of the next few weeks for you.  My Love  Sybilsybil45.  xxxx

siennastarr said...

Reading this made me cry.  Not because I have given up, or that I feel you have, but because you are so strong, and your spirit and your love shines brightly through each word you write.  Kim, you are never far from my mind... and always in my prayers.  If anyone can beat this... you can!  You just keep believing that!  Look at Lance Armstrong.  He had testicular Cancer that spread his lung and brain, and he survived.  Nothing is impossible, my friend.  
We are all praying for you, Kim....

You are amazing..  You really are...

Love, gentle hugs, and many prayers..

Jackie
http://journals.aol.com/siennastarr/Hopefloats/

psychfun said...

The time in between will help. You have it in you...just take that small flame & fuel it...perhaps with a tinge of anger but with smiles from others, flowers & birds outside etc.

momiscool2 said...

You are a wonderful woman and I am praying for you daily to beat this disease. I admire your strength and courage and love for your family. Your family and friends are very lucky they have you in their lives! Rest up and then Fight that *&*&*^* cancer like Hell!!!! {{{HUGS}}}Michelle

malagutigrrl said...

Thinking about you.  Candles lit.  Don't stop telling those bastards to die.  Eventually they'll get the hint.  

mzgoochi said...

Boy, do I know how you feel. I don't wanna ride this ride again.

Like I have a choice though, huh?

Hang in there Kim. You're gonna be my inspiration. Heck, you already are!

Love ya, Lahoma

sdoscher458 said...

The body heals when you rest, so rest well - our beautiful Irish princess Warrior woman.  (You have earned that title dear) Even when you dream, dream of little mini me's with shields kicking the hell of C.  Wish I could kick with you...love, Sandi

redsneakz said...

Be strong.  None of us can give you anything that you don't already have in Jim.  Be strong for yourself.

imshadowraven2 said...

Rest my irish sister and bask in our love for you..............Robin

melissam6969 said...

I've been a lurker in your journal for a long time, I may have left a comment a long time ago.. I'm not really sure.
My thoughts and prayers are with you! Your journey really touches home with me. I lost my Mom to renal cell carcinoma in Sept. 06'. She went from great, to dying just like that. She didn't want her life to end.. and she wouldn't accept that she was sick. Even with her not able to do anything for being in so much pain. It was so hard to watch her go through it but  I was there with her thru the very end.  
I read your journal and I cry my eyes out for you. For your kids, and your husband. Cancer is the ugliest thing in this world. And I really hope you beat it!!! You'll be in my thoughts.. but with your family is where you truly need to be...
Best wishes.. ~Melissa

wildflowersea said...

Rest.
~Annie

mccine said...

What about water and Ensure? Do not respond rest. Please. I am with you.

princesssaurora said...

{{{ Kim }}}}  I understand... this time... it is harder for you, and that is okay.  Be in the quiet, know that we are taking up the noise, in the form of prayers, and positive energy being sent your way!!!!   It is okay... rest.... your body needs it...  The fight is on... we are fighting with you... rest in Jim's arms... I know he is your foundation rock.

You will win... I feel it in my bones.

be well,
Dawn
http://journals.aol.com/princesssaurora/CarpeDiem/

princesssaurora said...

{{{ Kim }}}}  I understand... this time... it is harder for you, and that is okay.  Be in the quiet, know that we are taking up the noise, in the form of prayers, and positive energy being sent your way!!!!   It is okay... rest.... your body needs it...  The fight is on... we are fighting with you... rest in Jim's arms... I know he is your foundation rock.

You will win... I feel it in my bones.

be well,
Dawn
http://journals.aol.com/princesssaurora/CarpeDiem/

amyrangei said...

You are such a strong woman.  And here I was feeling sorry for myself.  After reading your entry I realize no matter what we are going through we must never give up!  Keep up the emotional strength and kick mr. cancer`s asr!

princesssaurora said...

{{{ Kim }}}}  I understand... this time... it is harder for you, and that is okay.  Be in the quiet, know that we are taking up the noise, in the form of prayers, and positive energy being sent your way!!!!   It is okay... rest.... your body needs it...  The fight is on... we are fighting with you... rest in Jim's arms... I know he is your foundation rock.

You will win... I feel it in my bones.

be well,
Dawn
http://journals.aol.com/princesssaurora/CarpeDiem/

mosie1944 said...

I admire you for being honest with us and with yourself.  You should feel no obligation to anybody but yourself and your immediate family.

gandsbrock said...

{{{Kim}}}  We don't doubt that you haven't lost your fighting Irish spirit.  Spending your time just living your life without all the electronic distractions and being with your famly and yourself - that's a good thing.  It sounds like you are going to have to dig even deeper this time around.  Praying that you can have joy right here, right now.  - Stephanie

mpnaz58 said...

I just don't know what to say, except I know you are a fighter. I KNOW YOU ARE A FIGHTER!!!!!  More importantly, YOU KNOW IT, TOO!!  Take care...
xoxo ~Myra

icewitch96 said...

(((KIM)))  We are all worried about you, and thank you for stopping by to update us.  You do what YOU feel you need to do to steel yourself for this fight, if that means that you don't journal every day, or if you send emails to someone to post something about you, it's what YOU feel is the right thing to do.  All any of us want is for you to kick this is the ass and start getting better.  We're here if you need us.

Love and Prayers,

Jenn
htpp://journals.aol.com/icewitch96/JennsWorld

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glensfork4 said...

(((((Kim))))) sending love, best thoughts and prayers to you....rest...we are all here for you.

Michele
http://journals.aol.com/glensfork4/these-are-my-thoughts/

dornbrau said...

I don't believe in false hope.  Hope is hope.  There doesn't have to be a reason or proof, it is there.  Take it.  Swing it around like a bat if you have to.  Brandish it like armor when all other defenses begin to buckle.  Hope has many faces, you see them every day.  You hear Hope's voice every waking hour.  And when you rest, Hope watches over you, sometimes from afar, through faceless names but Hopeful none the less.  We are watching over you Kim.  Now rest.  We'll swing Hope's bat for a while.
Love you, Jody~

plieck30 said...

I think everyone understands what you are saying so rest an much and as long as you need to. Paula

dplkjl said...

I read your journal entry and I just feel so helpess.  I keep saying to myself that cancer picked the wrong person, I know that, we all know that and I just can not wait for the day that the cancer FINALLY realizes that.  It is so frustrating that this is happening to you.  It is unfair that you have to fight this battle (and I do believe it is a battle and in the end you will win this war) and you have to also be fearful that the treatment might let you down again.  But I don't feel that way, I have faith that the doctors have realized how stubborn your cancer cells are (gee, where do they get that from???) and the doctors seem to be treating this with a real agressive approach (go doctor's!).  I have faith, I KNOW you will get better, I just hate that it has to be such a rough road to recovery.  I am sending all my good thought energy and all my prayers to you.  Get lots of rest!  (lots of hugs) -Kelly

oddb0dkins said...

Have your rest and come back stronger. I wish I could send you something more substantial than words to help give you that strength. B. x

gehi6 said...

Of course from now on, you have to do what is top priority to you.  We are just privileged to read your words of courage. Gerry http;//journals.aol.com/gehi6/daughters-of-the-shadow-men/

nhd106 said...

We are all rooting for ya...take the time...and any feelings you need to get thru this.
Love,
Nancy

sunnyside46 said...

oh, Kim...
Marti

ldybutterfly1128 said...

Kim, there is no doubt that you have a wonderful support system at home to help keep you strong, mentally if nothing else, but please know in your heart that we are all praying for you and we are the ones who stand in the gap and hold you up when you yourself have no strength to do so.  My husband is the one battling cancer, I am not; so I can't say that I know what you are going through, but as a caretaker of a loved one with cancer I can say this, you will never be alone.  We are walking through this journey with you and will continue to do whatever it takes to get you well.  My heart breaks for your Jim, who I KNOW is dying a little bit inside because there is nothing he can do to make you feel better, so I will continue to pray for him as well.  Draw strength from any place you can get it.  We are all sending our strength to you.  I don't really know your belief system, but if you have a faith in God, it will give you the hope you so desperately long for.  It is not a false hope, but rather, a PROMISE of better days to come.  You can bank on it!  Trust.  Believe.  You can't go wrong, my friend.  Bless you.  Jamie  

pharmolo said...

Keep going strong, Kim, you're an example to others in a comparable situation. You don't make light of a very severe situation, but you do keep up the hope. From across the pond and on your side, we're with you for the journey.

nata1118 said...

Kim, i came across your blog today and just wanted you to know that you are in my prayers. Have faith! you're an amazing woman and inspiration to us all.

eternallife23 said...

Kim, you have always been an inspiration to me. You will beat this. Take your time and rest. Keep having your hope. Many people are praying for and sending good vibes your way. Keep telling that cancer to leave your body. Visualize yourself cancer free and having fun with your family. You are a warrior!

You will win... I feel it in my bones.
Louise

ginsherer said...

Hang in there, girlfriend....I know how tough it is and I remember feeling like you do...Ginny Sherer

kirkbyj05 said...

That darned chemo really takes the oxygen out of your body...doesn't it?  Fatigue is so debilitating and sleep becomes so welcome.
I don't know if this will be a help Kim but when the chemo zapped all my red blood cells, I found I craved raw salad spinach which is full of iron.  I couldn't get enough of it.  My chemo nurses commented on how quickly my bloods came back so I credited the spinach with that.  I know your stomach is queasy but if you get a little bit of appetite perhaps you could try it? I used to say to myself if I feel so rough how rough does the cancer feel.....a very pleasant thought for those low moments.  Rest when your body tells you. We will all be here praying hard for you.    God Bless you.   Hugs  Jeanie

pippa1116 said...

At one time, I believed that if I were ever dx'd with cancer, I would give up and let it take me.  I feel differently now and I believe it is because of you.  Now I know that my fight would be very important, whether I won or not.  Because any gain in research that is made with MY treatment, may help the next person.  So regardless of the outcome, the fight will be worth it.
Happy Mother's Day,

Tina

ladyvictoriak said...

{{{{{{{{{{{{{{Kimberleigh}}}}}}}}}}}}}

Viki

canyonsun04 said...

My husband FINALLY got your package out today, we were waiting on funds to send it. It should arrive Monday OR Tuesday.
I think it's good you can find the energy and time to journal out your thoughts. I firmoly believe it's poison keeping thoughts inside your soul, so when your hear let them out the best you can.  I'm sorry you have go through this again, it's just not fair :(  Just hang in there sweetie, you will make it :)
Hugs & Love
Angie

rbrown6172 said...

{{{kim}}}  praying for you, for strentgh and peace, too.
gina

astaryth said...

I'm glad you are getting a little break... Relax, regroup and you'll be ready to come out fighting again. {{{Hugs}}}

barbpinion said...

Heavenly Father, I ask that you embrace this dear one just now. Let her know the honor of Your presence, the tightness and warmth of your embrace. Quiet her mind and fill her heart with YOUR peace, that promised peace of Christ, that holds us steady midst our darkest, most painful moments. Bless those who love her, who help her, who love her so much.  She is such a courageous lady, giving all she has for those she loves, not complaing, just trying hard to cope. Grant her time in her safe place - with those she loves - and who love her so dearly. I ask these things in Your Son's most precious name. Amen.
Stay strong, in HIS strenght. Praying for you every day.
Barb- http://journals.aol.com/barbpinion/FROMBARBSSPIRITUALJOURNALS
        http://journals.aol.com/barbpinion/HEYLETSTALK

ab45yui said...

No words seem adequate after reading your post.  I wish there was something I could give to make all this go away, but I don't have that kind of power.  I will pray for you.  God bless.

s0ngbird1962 said...

(((Kim)))  You are amazing and strong... even when you feel you are weak.  Cancer cannot weaken your spirit.  My Mom's fight is back on too, (same amount of time) never left her body.   She's not going through treatment this time, never wants to feel the way she did when going through chemo, had many complications.... Going for quality.   I can't understand what you're going through, but I do understand being the family member that stands by helplessly... My heart goes out to not only you, but your Jim and family.   Accepting my Mom's decision has been tough, steady my soul, steady my soul.  I support her no matter what.  There is no easy way out, no matter one's decision.  Your entry about you being alright, no matter what, it's a win-win for you... plays in my mind.

Many prayers being said....  You can beat this thing into remission Kim.  Never lose that hope, believe.  I do.  

klconard1 said...

Praying with you that the cancer cells will indeed die, every single one of them.
loving you
karyl

mariebm56 said...

Praying for you, Kim....
Praying for peace, for hope,your continued love & support of your family & your sooo needed strength to conquer this battle.
{{{HUGS}}}

Marie

tendernoggle said...

Kim, Honey...it is only normal to feel as you do...Hell I would be bawling mye yes out right now if I were in your place....You have shown more strength and character while enduring this hell than anyone else I know...I do not understand why, during all the treatments you had,  the doctors could not have known that this new cancer was invading your body...and I do not understand how it could have escaped the chemo....so many questions...and i know you wonder too...You rest all you need to...we will be here...anytime you need us...we will be here.
God bless you.
love ya,
carlene

jckfrstross said...

Keeping you in prayer:) enjoy your weekend with family and Happy Mothers Day

Deb

nightmaremom said...

Continued prayers and strength.  Rest and relax this weekend... Happy Mother's Day!
hugs
d

sarcomacoma said...

Hey Honey, Take if from someone who knows exactly where you're at ... Give it time..."IT WILL PASS"!
My name is Robin, I am a stage 4 cancer survivor and I was very touched by our blog, loved your ability to put it all into words, very well done.  

I know that feeling of getting blind-sided by another bad scan when you least expect it.  It really jars your world, but I can tell you are strong.  You are dealing with it, feeling it and open about it.  It does take time though, but you will learn and continue to fight.  You are exactly where you need to be.  You can survive!  There is a reason...a bigger purpose...you will find out soon.

My cancer started in 1992 and I wish I had a nickel for everytime I was "supposed to die"!!!  I was on hospice last year and now I am up and about, feeling pretty damn good.  I stopped my treatment and I feel so much better!!  I am not advising anyone to stop thier treatment... BUT...Remember one thing---"CANCER CANNOT LIVE IN AN ALKALINE ENVIROMENT"!  That knowledge has helped me tremendously.  After 3 years of numerous surgeries, life support, months and months of chemo only to find out it returned someplace else, I took control of my treatment and went back to pre-chemo, eastern type treatments and I feel great!  So it can be done!

I hope you get a chance to read this and can check out my space for my story and pictures you can probably relate to.  I would love to hear back from you if you are up to it and if there is anything I can do...Just let me know, I am here for you.
My Prayers are with you,
survive and thrive my friend,
Robin  
http://www.myspace.com/robinsurvivingthriving

caswellcs1 said...

You are about due for something special; it's 100% natural as well as 100% true. It's made by your children using things made from life. Your homemade Mother's Day Card. The paper is made from the wood of trees. The crayons made from roots, plants and soil. The words from those you gave life are from their hearts so honest and pure, suggests no matter the situations you are indeed presious and they are turly blessed. by the way Happy Mother's Day from a friend.

lilysparadise said...

Wishing you continued strength to fight this battle. I hope that you have been informed about counseling support services, if you need a shoulder to lean on. Sometimes, venting to someone helps you stay focused, and maybe share with you some relaxation techniques when things get worrisome, as well as answer any unanswered questions you may have. I have thoroughly been amazed at your strength and candidness about your life. Will keep you in my prayers, and am wishing you a wonderful Mother's Day. You are truly an inspiration to all women out here in J-land, Kim. (((hugs)))
Sincerely, Rose~*

lindapaterson177 said...

Stay safe in Jims arms Kim, will be thinking of you. luv bella xx

wingedbree said...

I feel for you so much hon {{{gentle hugs}}} You have been so brave for so long now and this time 'round, you're tired, bone deep tired of 'being strong in the face of it all' aren't ya?

What came across to me most is that for the first time really since I began reading your journal is the tone was different. I could tell that this time you have begun the grieving process and that is one rough road.  

Hope---I have a quote in my car for me to read every single day:

"Faith is hope holding it's hand out in the dark and just believing"

Deep inside your head remind yourself of the truth you know, Each and every single day is gift...I absolutely believe this for you & myself ...each day and every single moment is a gift for not just YOU but those around you and those whose lives you've touched through your journaling and your upbeat attitude. I know in person you have touched many many lives you don't even realize as you have fought your way through this.

Just know that we are all out here praying for you and your family...numbers count!

sugerb6 said...

Kim your family needs you as much as you need them at this time. Every breath you take is a precious memory as they grieve for you while you are here. No you are not GIVING UP...these are the words of my sister, "I am not giving up, I do not want to die, I have no choice." Hard words for a family to swallow, yet so true.
You have been an inspiration to so many including myself, now is the time for you, for your family. Thinking of you and your family as you walk this journey gracefully, may you each find peace.
Love
Debbie

ajquinn354 said...

Kim, know you must be going through a thousand and one questions, concerns, thoughts with all you are going through with your cancer re-occurrence.  Kim you need your family and the time with Jim.....only someone going through what you are knows the emotional thoughts and concerns and worry.....do what you need to for yourself dear, we're hear keeping you in our special thoughts and prayers. Keep my Cus the Pope's medal close at hand dear; miracles happen all the time.  I've seen it in my family several times dear....Bless you...Arlene (AJ)

roxzee1 said...

Your in my prayers Kim...

startnfrm0 said...

Thank you for sharing the gift of your story.  Know that, in doing so, we who receive it live fuller, richer lives.  Blessings from Brooklyn, NY.

bowyerlori said...

KIMMY...GOD BLESS YOU. I AM GLAD THAT YOU KNOW WHO YOU ARE, WHERE YOU COME FROM, AND WHAT YOU HAVE HAD TO ENDURE, IT SHOWS GREAT STRENGTH AND I AM SO PROUD TO KNOW YOU. I PRAY FOR YOU AND YOUR FAMILY EACH AND EVERY DAY. ALTHOUGH WE HAVE NEVER MET, YOU GAVE ME STRENGTH AS WELL. YOU TOOK TIME OUT OF YOUR OWN PAIN TO HELP ME DEAL WITH MINE AND I AM FOREVER GRATEFUL FOR THAT. I LOVE YOU AND GOD BLESS YOU GIRL...LORI

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sangrialel said...

You take all the time you need to get yourself where you need to be, we will be here w hen you are ready!  You are in my prayers.  Linda

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shauneenie said...

Dearest Kim, Please listen to Don Moen's song "Be still and know that I am God" I BELIEVE that God can heal your spirit (if not your body-It is His will alone) .If you listen to the words of this song, you will know what I mean. I have experienced the healing power that flows from this song.Please try it,dear In prayer for you and family.Strength of body and spirit is what I pray for you. Hugs, Shauneen

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shoot4mephoto said...

Kim while you are lying down resting, renewing your soul; meditate..Visualize your body your soul wrapped up in a cocoon. Picture the cancer leaving your body. Leaving your breasts, leaving your lungs, leaving your brain..Watch it leave..
    Just like your body, your mind is a powerful player in your recovery...Use it against the cancer, use it in a way to help your body rid the cancer..You have remarkable inner strength, find new avenues, new tools..Find a way to renew your strength.. Pray..Pray that Jesus take the power away from the cancer..Pray you rise above it all..Believe you deserve a miracle..Fight the cancer from the inside...
You are too young and too beautiful to die..Your family needs you..Other survivors need you..I need you to live. I need to know there is Hope..I need to know when an individual does all the right things to fight there cancer they can Win the battle..You need to come out on the side of the living!!  God give you the strength!!
Love Lisa

preciousone25 said...

Rest well, you need your strength.  My prayers are with you all the way!!  You are so very strong, YOU WILL WIN!!!!!

Joann

ladyvictoriak said...

Happy Mothers Day, Kim.  

Viki

jonathanfoxley said...

i say the same thing each time but, i'm sending love out to you and praying each day that you have pockets of serenity in your day
lucy x

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dwhee70041 said...

Kim, It's difficult for me to say anything at this time.  I admire your strength and attitude.  Our prayers are with you.
David

geegee0067 said...

Happy Mother's Day Kim.........I am sending you hugs, love, and strength to deal with this. You are always in my thoughts and prayers.

Christine

thinkingoutloud said...

Happy Mother's day Kimberleigh!

I hope you have a wonderful day with your family, and I hope you are feeling well and your spirits are lifted.
Love n prayers to you & yours,
Niki

ajquinn354 said...

Kim, thinking of you dear and wishing you a beautiful Mother's Day with your kids.  Bless you always.....Arlene (AJ)

jmorancoyle said...

    Happy Mother's Day to you and yours. As always, you are in my prayers. Rest and take care.
Jude
http://journals.aol.com/jmorancoyle/MyWay

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bookncoffee said...

It's hard to find words but I want to say something....You are admired and loved my many here in J-Land.  Keep fighting.  I'm thinking about you and keeping you in my prayers.  I think everyone would understand if you don't return calls and emails and need rest.  I hope you have a peaceful and pain free day.  :>)  
Sonya

lmitc89854 said...

God bless you and keep you safe.

olachiaclan said...

Kim,
You are a strong woman. I know you know this. No, cancer isn't fair. It sucks. I hate the beast. It is a hard path, especially when you are walking it a second time around in such a short time. I know it can seem really overwhelming inside the belly of the beast. But you are always here in my heart, always in my thoughts and always in my prayers. It's going to take time to patch you up sweetie, but that beautiful spirit and the amazing glow that you seem to pull off with such natural ease will always be present.
Please know how deeply you are loved? We are sisters in this battle Kim. I am here to hold your hand and to scream and kick back at this beast with you!
Christina
http://journals.aol.com/olachiaclan/the-uniboob-club/

princesssaurora said...

Happy Mother's Day... know that prayers were and are being sent and you were thought of yesterday...

and always....

be well,
Dawn
http://journals.aol.com/princesssaurora/CarpeDiem/

bmorrrick said...

Hi Kim,

I hope you had a wonderful Mother's Day.  I was happy to see you'd made an entry....I worry so much about you and want to know how you're doing.  I'm keeping you in my prayers daily, and hope and pray things get easier for you.  You're such a brave, wonderful lady....such an inspiration!  Take care of yourself, rest, and know we are all here for you.

Take Care,
~Bilinda~

lindaggeorge said...

Just because you aren't well enough to do an entry doesn't mean to say we forget about you. Think of you every day and keeping fingers and everything else crossed that you will soon be well.

Linda x.

mutualaide said...

Kim, you are always in my prayers and thoughts.  

shoot4mephoto said...

I come back on often to check on you..I worry about how you are holding up? I hope your ok. By the looks of this blog you are very much loved by many wonderful people..I hope you are gaining strength..

lacaza3 said...

I have no words that would heal...my close freend gave it her all and ended up on the wrong side...It sadden me to know end...its been 4 years and i still have days
I thought of stating a website to get people to donate so I can make blanket for breaswt cancer suvivors to use while taking chemo and to sleep with at nithg ....they are really cute but to make them for all woman would be more expense than I have....my prayers are with you
Donn aIn Texas
http://journals.aol.com./Lacaza3/sweepingthecobwebsofmymind/

libragem007 said...

Hi Kim,
Gem here. Stopping by to say hello and sending thoughts and prayers.
Thinking of you,
Gem~

astoriasand said...

KIM You keep the words to this hyme in your head.
Fight the good fight with all thy might;
Christ is thy Strength, and Christ thy Right;
Lay hold on life, and it shall be
Thy joy and crown eternally.

You can do it KIM I am certain of this.You are too strong for that weak vistor to your body.You show it girl GO GO GO .For now rest if you need to.Prayers thousandfold being said for you and Jim and the children and all your family.Sorry my comment is late alerts have not been coming through for some of us.Take Care God Bless Kath
astoriasand http://journals.aol.co.uk/astoriasnd/MYSIMPLERHYMES

geminisolox said...

Hi Kim, just dropping by.....thinking of you every day...lots of love, Gem in the UK xxxx

ldybutterfly1128 said...

Hey Kim,

I hope that you are resting well, my friend.  I'm just popping in to say hello and to tell you that I am still thinking of you and praying for you.  You hang tough, girl!  You are the PINK WARRIOR! It's a rough road, but you are definitely not alone in this battle.  I'm still here for you, along with everyone else.  

God bless you, Kim.  Praying for renewed strength and complete healing for you.

With Love,
Jamie

coelha said...

Hang in there sweetie..  Keeping you in my thoughts and prayers.. Julie :)

chatngirl32 said...

Kim, You are a hero in my eyes. It breaks my heart to read your journey. I haven't been reading you for very long but it still hurts me to see you going through this....You are in my prayers, Tami

pprrrr39 said...

Kim......in my eyes you are an inspiration to anyone who is battling with cancer. You have been so so strong and i pray that you still will be . Its your stubboness towards cancer that keeps you going. This awful disease tries to manipulate you anyway it can....all we can do is fight back.
Sending prayers my friend
hugs
Jayne

emilynblanton said...

Hi Kim, am just stopping by to say hello and let you know you have been in thoughts and prayers deliberately this past week.  Hang in there . . . emily.

thegirlnexdoor77 said...

Hugs and so hope you will take care of yourself and beat this thing...You can do it!!!  I will keep you in my prayers and thoughts and also you family as you continue to battle this!  Hugs,TerryAnn

hestiahomeschool said...

Go ahead and scream DIE YOU BASTARDS!!!  They will hear you!!!

I think it helps. I screamed a lot into the laundry basket so I would not freak out my family.

chaispice1023 said...

just stopping in to let you know you're in my prayers and thoughts, kim.  

(((((((((hugs))))))))))))

christianfaithhs said...

Hosea 4:6 My people are destroyed for lack of knowledge.  Dr Day also had breast cancer and she beat it and she tells you how you can too. It is never too late.  www.drday.com  It may be helpful and encouraging for you to read my free ebook, "God is the Cure", at www.cfhsm.ws   God bless You