Wednesday, November 1, 2006

So cancer..this all you got?

OK, I'm coming back from my few days of hell.....not so much that I feel sick, more like I hate feeling so weak...Chemo takes a lot out of me, but in the end I take back what it has taken from me. What a grand day that will be when they find a better way to deal with Cancer than chemo...but if I intend on sticking around and finish raising the last two of my children remaining at home...I will finish the chemo, do the hormone therapy afterwards and know I have literally been to hell and back..it's a good thing I'm soooo stubborn huh?? lol

Four months into my "Extreme Cancer Makeover" I have learned many things....my hair and my breasts do not matter to me as much as I thought they would, they do not define me as "Woman" and I have come to discover that I was much cuter as a bald baby then I am as a bald women..thank you eye lashes and eye brows for sticking around a lil while longer....at least I can run my fingers through those instead of my hair huh?? lol I can't tell you how much money I am saving by not having to buy hair products and razors.. and the only thing I am 'curling' right now are my eye lashes! lol

One more round of the "bad chemo"......next Tuesday..... then on to 4 rounds of the Taxol, but after reading up on Taxol the side effects seem to be exactly the same...at least I will be half way done with treatment. I will get some peace knowing that....and that tomorrow will be even better than today as I am on the incline of my good week.

Cancer.... you have taken only a brief moment of my life but I have learned many things about myself because of you....I'm going to be a survivor and I will light the way of many other survivors as those before me have lit my way. We are only as strong as our weakest link and I have yet to meet anyone who could or would walk away from life so easy....

Life is good and I am blessed!

32 comments:

ashleekr said...

Your strength and attitude still amaze me.  I am so sorry for your suffering, but you are a wonderful role model!
Ash

yakima127 said...

Your attitude is awesome, your strength is incredible...well done on that last round...Jae

candlejmr said...

So glad you are back from your visit to "hell.."  I really wish you didn't have to go there so often!!!  I've heard it's not a nice place to visit!!!!!!!!!!!!

Hang in there my friend....the halfway mark is right around the corner and there is going to be a HUGE PARTY when your treatment is OVER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

((hugs))
Jeanne

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jonathanfoxley said...

bless you for being so couragous.....
you inspire me
lucy x

tendernoggle said...

I want you to know that i thik you are one of the bravest people I know and if I ever need someone to kick some butt for me, I'm calling you!!! lol
Love ya girl,
carlene

lanurseprn said...

Mental attitude can make all the difference.  I think you are doing so well!!
Pam

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pharmolo said...

Just carry on the way you are, Kim, you're doing just fine

sangrialel said...

You are truly amazing!  Linda

lindaggeorge said...

It's November now and you are doing so well, just a few short weeks till you start getting your life back to normal.

Linda x.

http://journals.aol.co.uk/lindaggeorge/GeorgeMansions/

rebuketheworld said...

Your amazing. I will be so glad for you when this season is over with and you can live your life without chemo...You'll have a head full of hair soon and your wonderful babies, hubby and you can start off the days trusting the future and enjoying each day. It probably sounds like a dream right now because your so tired but it will happen...I do enjoy your witt. This entry is very special...We learn so much from tough times and I rarely care about the lessons during it. I just want it over with,lol....but its later on, that I remember and smile much bigger or shall I say, easier....Continue to rest, the journey is half way there, to being over and goodbye to chemo.

~Raven
http://journals.aol.com/rebuketheworld/RandomThoughtsConnected/

lazarai said...

Rock on, Kimberleigh!!

Hugs,
Carol

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brandyp0509 said...

You know you have the best outlook on this and that alone will get you the rest of the way through this.  Hang in there!  You have my prayers.  

gandsbrock said...

Dum, dum, dum, another one bites the dust!!  I know it feels like an eternity to you, but it's going by quickly.  It's November already!!  You are doing a fine job.

Oh, we were ALL much cuter as babies than we are now.  *sigh*

inafrnz247 said...

glad you're still holding on to the right attitude.  You will get through this, I know you will.  

hugs,
michelle

stupidsheetguy said...

I hope you feel beautiful today, because that's the only word I could think to describe what I just read. We get inspiration from a lot of different sources every day, and I just got mine. Thank you.

Jimmy

nelishianatl said...

That's the attitude that keeps me going.  I take my lead from you.
NELISHIA
http://journals.aol.com/nelishianatl/WISHINGANDHOPING/
http://journals.aol.com/tsalagiprincess1/JumpingOffTheDeepEnd/

ajquinn354 said...

Kim I'm so proud of your wonderful attitude and positive thought direction.  Know its not easy going through what you are but love that you are determined not to let this get you down.....that's a real winners attitude in my book.  Good for you dear.....Arlene (AJ)

cgferrer71 said...

You visited me? and gave me support and a commpliment, and here you are brave and strong and living life to the fulliest. You have to be the most positive person I have ever met. You can beat this. Chemo is tough. I watched my dad go through it. Take it easy also. I think You have the heart to fight this.
Love christine

astaryth said...

"Life is good and I am blesse" --- That says it all! {{{{Hugs}}}}
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thegirlnexdoor77 said...

Hugs and in my prayers!!! TerryAnn

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chevyz71gurl74 said...

Kim...
I could read your words day in and day out...
You are such an inspiration to me....your outlook
on life and cancer amaze me, I hope one day we can
all have the same umphhh you have to live everyday
to our fullest.  I needed to read this great attitude about
life today...cause i had a terrible day at work...and now i see
that my day was nothing compared to what some have to go through...thank you for always giving me more hope....
Always in my prayers
Hugs..~Terri~

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psychfun said...

And they wonder why women have babies instead of men...Right! HA! I think we need many more movies for kids where the girl is the hero! Like The Paperbag Princess (book). I've been thinking about you all month. I bought t-shirts, umbrellas, socks & hats & I'm raffling them with my students if they send me a fact on Breast Cancer Awareness & then I put in a powerpoint & they have to send to friends. We also have a fundraiser raffle with a basket of a set & then today & tomorrow (didn't get ready for last week) we are selling pink roses. We are also selling purple ones for Domestic Violence mont too. Hopefully, next year we can do more, maybe speakers etc. Keep strong!

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plieck30 said...

Good girl. I'm so proud of you. Paula

rainy35 said...

Rock on Kim!  I love your attitude.  You're awesome!  And life is good and we're all blessed.  Keeping ya in my prayers, girl!
Hugs,
Dana
http://journals.aol.com/rainy35/RoadToSuccess

xomywayox said...

Bravo baby! Bravo....and you have the cutes eye lashes!

Cioa Bella....Brenda