Sunday, January 23, 2005

old hurts, music and healing

  Again I found today's inspiration in another friends journal...."Girl Of God" She writes about feeling a lil down on herself and the ways she has coped with what she had to endure as a child and how it's long icy fingers still reach out to her and grab hold as an adult from time to time today....There is a link to her journal at the bottom of my entry. I too still deal with the remnants of childhood pain.... I think most of us still do.  


 I find comfort and wisdom in music...This Song was written by a much younger man (who I believe is a member of Nine Inch Nail) but redone by the Man in Black....Johnny Cash..it was on his last album and it is by far his best work and his unchallenged best at story telling. It's about the endless cycle of self abuse after being abused.....It's real, it's raw and it's truth can be seen.....one only has to substitute the word 'needle' and add the word only they know, and it will speak it's truth to them.


  "HURT"  


 I hurt myself today
to see if I still feel
I focus on the pain
the only thing that's real
the needle tears a hole
the old familiar sting
try to kill it all away
but I remember everything
what have I become?
my sweetest friend
everyone I know
goes away in the end
and you could have it all
my empire of dirt

I will let you down
I will make you hurt

I wear this crown of thorns
upon my liar's chair
full of broken thoughts
I cannot repair
beneath the stains of time
the feelings disappear
you are someone else
I am still right here

What have I become?
my sweetest friend
everyone I know
goes away in the end
and you could have it all
my empire of dirt

I will let you down
I will make you hurt

if I could start again
a million miles away
I would keep myself
I would find a way




Girl of God's link


I am dissappointed In Myself

5 comments:

anarchitek said...

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imshadowraven2 said...

as always ur entry makes me think most of us who know exactly what this song means has a bond even if one has never met and it touches our souls

krobbie67 said...

Wow, that song is so sad. I bet it sounds great coming out of Johnny Cash though.
I think it takes time but the pains can be healed. I know therapy helped me tremendously and wanting to let it go. Life's too short to live in the past and be a victim to what you had no control over. ::::hugs:::: :-) ---Robbie

mzgoochi said...

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dvlwitgrneyes said...

Oh my goodness! THAT song makes me cry! It was played at my fathers funeral andit so fit him. It was out by Johnny Cash before he died and he mentioned once to my brother that it reminded him of himself. needle included.

Cheryl
http://journals.aol.com/dvlwitgrneyes/Fortysomething/