A year ago this month I was at my General Practitioner office having my yearly check up....I was a good girl, I had my pap test, my breasts examined and had the typical blood work drawn....I was also handed a referral for a mammogram...I had started my base line of mammogram's at the correct age of 40....no need to worry, no breast cancer history in the family....I had my follow up mammogram's at 41 and 42...I skipped my age 43 mammogram and ended up with breast cancer 4 months later...no need to cry over spilled milk right? So I don't.
So this February, I schedule my womanly check up but this time I went to the woman center to have my testing done, I wanted to have it done by a doctor who specializes in women's health care...I want to be thorough this time around....I want nothing left unturned...I owe that to myself. So around my birthday is the time that I have this done.... it's a good way to remember the time I had it done ....about a week ago Tuesday, I had my check up....everything looks great Kim...we will call you if there is a problem....I bounce out of the office with my new found exuberance for life......Yesterday, late afternoon....phone rings..
Nurse:Is this Kim?
Me:Yes it is.
Nurse: This is so and so from so and so's office, I'm calling you to give you your test results and your results came back abnormal so the doctor wants to do a Colposcopy.
Me: Abnormal? You know that I just finished chemo for my breast cancer right?
Nurse: Oh...No I didn't know that......ok, then we need to see you as soon as possible
Me: barely able to keep my composure, trying not to hyperventilate, feeling my eyes fill up with tears.....oh no! Please not again, not this soon! Could this be because of the chemo? I did have lesions everywhere. (internal)
Nurse: I don't think so....we can fit you in March 14th?
Me: Quick on the math, that's 3 weeks away.....3 weeks to over think, don't you have anything sooner?
Nurse: No, I'm sorry
Me: Ok, I guess I have to wait......thank you.....goodbye
So now after a mini melt down, a mini what if? I put a call into my cancer Doctor...my Oncologist...I relay everything that was said and I'm told instantly.......Kim don't freak out just yet, it is normal for a pap test to come back "abnormal"following chemo....have the test and have them send over a report when finished.....don't loose sleep over this Kim.....It's too soon to worry......I remember not worrying about the lump in my breast either....I was told it was probably nothing.
Today is my middle daughter's 21st birthday....it's a big deal, it's a big celebration....so I will keep this to myself a lil while longer....my kids have already gone through enough. Jim just holds me and let's me cry.
So here we go again........