Friday, September 28, 2007

Had my new chemo last Tuesday (Navelbine) Not liking it all... I ended up sleeping the weekend away except for a brief outing to my oldest daughters house for Dinner on Saturday where I proceeded to throw up my dinner, The last 3 chemo's I was on did not make me sick so I wasn't prepared for that "Ick" feeling all over again like I experienced with the very first type of chemo I had the AC &T,

So this week they gave me half of a dose of the new stuff and I go back next Tuesday and have the other half and maybe my body will have adjusted itself better to it, if not I don't know If I want to continue taking that chemo, quality of life has to play a role in here somewhere. I can't walk around fighting cancer when the treatment makes me wanna die. So far so good with the half dose, but I also want to make sure if I have to take this chemo I am getting a dose high enough to do it's job. You have no idea how sick I am of being sick! Ugh!!!!

I'm still doing physical therapy even after a rough last week, but I saw the difference the exercises I was doing at home and the 2 times a week I spend at the center have made and when I feel stronger, I feel more like my old self. Oh yeah, my tumor markers WERE DOWN last week. Dr. Serious based the change of chemo on the fact that even though they were down, the tumors on my liver and my lung were slightly larger than last time per my cat scan of my chest, abdomin and pelvic area....so that is why the switch once again, on my chemo.

I was blessed with the news that my olderst Daughter and her Husband are ready to start a family come this spring......what better incentive to kick this disease than a grandbaby.....life goes on and I still want to be in it.....with a grandbaby on my hip of course! OK, Time to get ready for rehab!

Life is good and I am thankful!

50 comments:

cvgflydis said...

Awww, new baby!  I'm sorry you feel so sick (chemo). I hope the half dose does you good, and keeps you from that all over sick to your stomach feeling!
{{{{{{{{{{so many hugs}}}}}}}}}}

Angel

ajquinn354 said...

Kim, was wondering how you were doing, so sorry the new chemo drug is making you so darn sick to your stomach, lets hope you start tolerating it better dear. Glad the physical therapy is helping you strength wise. What wonderful news your oldest daughter and hubby passed on to you; agree a great incentive to kick this disease.  Your grandchild is going to have a wonderful, loving Grandma whenever  he or she is born...keep that Warrior spirit dear going....take care. Hugs, Arlene (AJ)

lazarai said...

Geez, I hope this new chemo does what it's supposed to - then it will be worth all the side effects!! Whatever you gotta do, right? And now, with the promise of a new baby....even more reasons to keep fighting!

Hang in there, Kimberleigh! Hope you have a good weekend,
:) Carol

kirkbyj05 said...

Dear Kim

You never cease to amaze me.  You are so full of life and determination to beat this cancer.  I am in awe of your strength.  That's great news about yor daughter wanting to begin her family.  I can assure you that you will get so much more pleasure at watching your grandbabies being born and seeing them grow than you ever had bringing up your own.  As much as that was a pleasure with sometimes a few trials too, grandchildren bring out the chance to do it all again but better.  All the things you didn't know how to do and you learnt by trial and error with  your own children, are now firmly ensconced inside you. With all that wealth of  experience you will really begin to see the world through their eyes,  Not the eyes of a busy sometimes harrassed Mum.  I can firmly endorse being a grandparent and task you to aim for those wonderful days waiting for you next year.
You will have the best of times.  I promise you.
I send you my prayers for a smoother ride through this rotten chemo'.  
I'm also sending you a great big hug from
Me... a grandma' of five.  

Hugs
Jeanie  xxxxx

blpltt said...

Do hope the chemo balances out OK, so you don't get sick, Kim.  The only time I truly wanted to die was when being seasick.
Yes, get toned up and ready for that baby; great news!
Bunny xx

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astoriasand said...

Aww what wonderful news a new baby on the horizon.How lovely they are priceless.What a great brave Grandma (he or she's) knee they are going to sit upon soon.I hope the nasty sicky thing subsides shortly and the lower dosage does the same trick.You go Kim show them all.I know you can do it.Prayers thousandfold being said.I hope your daughter has a comfortable pregnancy too.Take Care God Bless You are marvelous.Kath
astoriasand http://journals.aol.co.uk/astoriasand/MYSIMPLERHYMES

lionesscarol1 said...

Hey Kim, what a bummer to get sick again from the chemo.  I'm sure the half doses will be better.  You hang in there gal, you've gotten thru all the other chit stuff, you will get thru this too.  You have a great incentive with a new grandbaby on the way.  My prays are with you, my heartfelt love is with you, and I just know some quality life is on its way to you.  Hugs, Carol  (LionessCarol1@aol.com)

pharmolo said...

Chemo effects are unpredictable up to a point, Kim. Congrats on impending extension to family!

candlejmr said...

You are gonna be the BESTEST GRANDMA and I know damn well that you are going to be around to enjoy every single minute of it!!!  I'm just so sorry that you have to go through so much sickness and chemo to get to that point.  But I have no doubt you WILL be rocking that baby!!!

((hugs))
Jeanne

hugsdoodlewacky said...

((((((((((((((((HUGSTOYOU)))))))))))))))))))))WOw,a Grandbaby,I know you will be around for a long time.I have 16 neices and nephews.Have a nice weekend.

chat2missie said...

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emabecmar said...

i was sick of being sick too when i was doing chemo. i hope this new chemo works for you. grandbabies are awesome. you'll be a wonderful grandma. ((((((((hugs)))))))))
Cindy

astaryth said...

Blech on the feeling bad with the chemo... but I'll bet hearing there will be a grandbaby on the way made you ready to fight even harder! Good for you, and good luck to the kids!!

faithmtn said...

Here's hoping that the chemo is kicking the cancer's butt even better than it's kicking yours!!! I hope you feel well enough to enjoy this weekend with loved ones. Feel better soon Kim!

"Courage is not the absence of fear, but acting in spite of it." ~~Mark Twain

You are courageous and brave.

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bvaneps834 said...

hope the new schedule makes you feel better--throwing up ain't no fun!

nelishianatl said...

A grandchild makes you want to get out of bed in the morning.  And GF they don't stop saying your name.  It's like a chant!  personally, it does it for me. Can't wait to hear your personal take on it yourself this coming spring.
Love to you,
Nelishia
http://journals.aol.com/nelishianatl/PrayingandBelieving/

chevyz71gurl74 said...

Sorry you have been so sick =(

I sure do hope the nausea subsides soon,
and you get to feeling lots better!

Ohhh how exciting you will make a wonderful
grandma, Nana...whatever you want to be called =)

Hope you have a good weekend Kim!

Hugs,
Terri

jckfrstross said...

have a good weekend:)

Deb

tendernoggle said...

Aw Kim...I wish that I could do something for you...I hope and pray that the new dose helps with the sickness...Oh...I hope they have a grand baby for you to love...I always hoped and prayed for one myself..It doesn't look like it is meant to be.God bless you sweetheart, and know that my prayers are with you always.
love ya,
carlene

gosso23 said...

Aww, I am so sorry you are having a hard time with this chemo. That sucks!! I hope it gets better for you.
What great news about your daughter wanting to start a family. You will love being a grandma! Take care,
Trish

sdoscher458 said...

I wish it would go a little easy on you for a while. Sorry that you feel so sick, thats not good. Maybe your system will start to accept it after a few days...still praying..love you...Sandi

ginsherer said...

Hi, I've been reading your blog, just haven't had time to comment lately...I'm sorry you're having a hard time...will keep praying for you.  I saw my own "Dr. Serious" this week and my blood tests all came out good.  Hang in there, lady...you will love having grandchildren...I adore mine.  Ginny

inafrnz247 said...

Keeping you in thoughts and prayers ~ as always, for always.  You'll make one fine Grandma!  

Love,
Michelle

plieck30 said...

I can imagine how sick you are of being sick. I wish you didn't have to go through all this but it won't be long before we will be reading entries about your very own grandbaby. Paula

irenemaeclark said...

Glad to see you are on again, I hadn't seen you on for awhile there.  Get well real soon Kim, regardless of what life throws at you!  

thinkingoutloud said...

Sorry to hear that you hit a 'snag'.

I know you are tired of being sick.  You are such a fighter and I know you are going to get back up and carry on.

A grandbaby sounds like the perfect remedy.

I hope you are feeling better as I type this:)
Love n prayers,
Niki

heavenlybama said...

Hope you feel better better soon Kim.  My prayers are with you always.
Love and hugs,
D
http://journals.aol.com/heavenlybama/journey-to-success

siennastarr said...

Always in awe of your high spirits and ever optimistic outlook, Kim!  You are such an inspiration to myself and others!

Keep your spirits high, my friend, and your faith strong!!

Much love
jackie

totallymentalben said...

This world is a better place because you're in it, Kim. (No pressure; just keep on being one of the most inspirational, positive and forward-thinking people on the planet.)

A grandchild will be every bit as lucky to have you, as you will be to have him/her.

Always...
Ben
http://journals.aol.com/totallymentalben/better-left-unsaid

rbrown6172 said...

{{{{kim}}}  still praying for you.  i love your positive attitude...it is SOOO important!  hang in there.  
gina

mutualaide said...

Kim, I continue to be in awe of your ability to see the positive and to express it so well for all of us here.   You are as important to us as we are to you ... continued prayers and good thoughts your way. Every day.  Always.

krisinrb said...

I just found your blog and want to add my voice to the others to say that I admire your strength and courage.  You are an inspiration to others on the same journey.

jmorancoyle said...

    Congrats, Grandma! That's great news. As for the other news, you are in my prayers, as usual.
Jude
http://journals.aol.com/jmorancoyle/MyWay

csandhollow said...

Bless you hun. http://journals.aol.com/csandhollow/Mydayandthoughts/entries/2007/10/01/the-fight/2989

beckiepainton said...

you look too young to be a grandma! Beckie x

ajquinn354 said...

Kim, was thinking of you, just wanted to say hi and hope you are getting along ok this week.  Hope we all hear from you soon.  Take care. Arlene (AJ)

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xguineapiggirlx said...

I didn't realise quite how sick chemo could make you.
Congratulations on finding out you'll be a grandparent soon!

thegirlnexdoor77 said...

Been praying for you...Praying you get some strenth and not feel so sick...congrats on the news of a grandbaby....Take care of your self ...Hugs,TerryAnn

princesssaurora said...

Just a whisper to let you know I am here... praying for you Warrior girl... and thinking on you often.

be well,
Dawn
http://journals.aol.com/princesssaurora/CarpeDiem/

redsneakz said...

Only good things for you, from now on.

dornbrau said...

Ah, grandbabies are very therapeutic, even over long distance.  The more the better!  
Hope you are feeling well.  Enjoy the fall.  Winter is on its way.  Are you ready?
Dorn~

ma24179 said...

AWWWWW.. congrats on your grandson.. I'm so sorry the chemo is making you sick :( -Missy

faithmtn said...

Sending you good thoughts and wishing you better days SOON!

bmorrrick said...

Hi Kim,

Oh yes, you will LOVE having a grandbaby!!  As you know, I'm just crazy about mine.....it's such a wonderful experience that you will treasure.  I'm sorry you got sick after eating and hope that stops, you have enough going on without fighting nausea too!  Hope you're feeling better and having a nice weekend.

Take Care,
~Bilinda~

psychfun said...

I'm glad to hear some fun will come into your life. A little one is the best medicine....my nieces are. Good luck with the new Chemo! I'll be praying for you.

pprrrr39 said...

(((((((((((((((((((((((( Kimberleigh))))))))))))))))))

Sorry to hear the chemo is being so bad to you....... but am hoping that the half dosage is working better.

Congrats on your grandchild...... they certainly keep you on your toes....... hard work,but nothing can take away the oy they bring

hugs Jayne

ginsherer said...

Hey, great news about the grandbaby!! I have 2 and they are so enjoyable...hang in there...was thinking about you.  Ginny