Pizza, Construction and Pumpkin Pie

Now that I have found my focus once again (yesterdays post was about me having a brief moment of wanting to stop chemo and just take my chances, that is why I had to go back to my past to find my way to my future) yesterday was a very good day for me.....only a brief bout with nausea over pizza....I love Chicago style Pizza and I have tried other style of pizza from coast to coast but once you try it here in this fabulous city you don't know what good pizza is. Since the side effects of chemo has ruined not only my taste buds but my sense of smell Pizza along with a few of my other favorites (seafood) are all on my "Bring that anywhere near me and I will throw up on your shoes" list (lol) I actually wanted pizza for dinner last night and it was well worth the initial gag of the smell! lol

Another good thing happened yesterday, well last night was that my DH informed that I found my smile again! He said he missed it and that he hadn't seen it for over a week and was a sight for sore eyes! Now ya see why I love this man so much.....he notices everything about me...always has. Yesterday was also the first whole day I stayed out of bed....no naps...no need to....a little more worn out with this round of chemo but I'm back to feeling the effects of the "good week in between" kicking in..... and my Mother baked me my own pumpkin pie.... I love her pumpkin pie...good day indeed! lol

I also made my first appearance in my neighborhood "ALA BALD" grant it, it was only to the mail box and back but it was my "Ok, I can do this" walk. It has nothing to do with vanity reasons....it's just that this disease has attacked was is "WOMAN" about me. It took one of my breasts, leaving me with a new one that is still in the process of healing, awaiting it's final surgery early next year (fake nipple and tattoo' d areola) with it's drooping sista (hey it's a D cup and I nursed my babies, whatta ya expect?? lol) wondering what's gonna happen to me?? lol ( a lift later when I have my final surgery) a healing scar from hip to hip (donor area) and now my golden halo of hair! Well at least my eyebrows and eyelashes are still sticking around for a lil while longer. So this cancer has altered the only image of me that I "know." I have to admit there are times when I catch a glimpse of me and say, "Who are you Circus Freak?" but then I just remind myself that I am not a Circus Freak .....I am just "UNDER CONSTRUCTION!!!!" lol

When visiting with my plastic surgeon last week , Dr. Hollywood he asked me what I expected after reconstrution.....I said my only wish is to live the next 40 years bra less!!! He said excellent wish! lol lol lol