Friday, October 20, 2006

Pizza, Construction and Pumpkin Pie

Now that I have found my focus once again (yesterdays post was about me having a brief moment of wanting to stop chemo and just take my chances, that is why I had to go back to my past to find my way to my future) yesterday was a very good day for me.....only a brief bout with nausea over pizza....I love Chicago style Pizza and I have tried other style of pizza from coast to coast but once you try it here in this fabulous city you don't know what good pizza is. Since the side effects of chemo has ruined not only my taste buds but my sense of smell Pizza along with a few of my other favorites (seafood) are all on my "Bring that anywhere near me and I will throw up on your shoes" list (lol) I actually wanted pizza for dinner last night and it was well worth the initial gag of the smell! lol

Another good thing happened yesterday, well last night was that my DH informed that I found my smile again! He said he missed it and that he hadn't seen it for over a week and was a sight for sore eyes! Now ya see why I love this man so much.....he notices everything about me...always has. Yesterday was also the first whole day I stayed out of bed....no naps...no need to....a little more worn out with this round of chemo but I'm back to feeling the effects of the "good week in between" kicking in..... and my Mother baked me my own pumpkin pie.... I love her pumpkin pie...good day indeed! lol

I also made my first appearance in my neighborhood "ALA BALD" grant it, it was only to the mail box and back but it was my "Ok, I can do this" walk. It has nothing to do with vanity reasons....it's just that this disease has attacked was is "WOMAN" about me. It took one of my breasts, leaving me with a new one that is still in the process of healing, awaiting it's final surgery early next year (fake nipple and tattoo' d areola) with it's drooping sista (hey it's a D cup and I nursed my babies, whatta ya expect?? lol) wondering what's gonna happen to me?? lol ( a lift later when I have my final surgery) a healing scar from hip to hip (donor area) and now my golden halo of hair! Well at least my eyebrows and eyelashes are still sticking around for a lil while longer. So this cancer has altered the only image of me that I "know." I have to admit there are times when I catch a glimpse of me and say, "Who are you Circus Freak?" but then I just remind myself that I am not a Circus Freak .....I am just "UNDER CONSTRUCTION!!!!" lol

When visiting with my plastic surgeon last week , Dr. Hollywood he asked me what I expected after reconstrution.....I said my only wish is to live the next 40 years bra less!!! He said excellent wish! lol lol lol

27 comments:

rap4143 said...

Hang in there!!!! Your attitude will carry you!!
Betty

reconcilinglife said...

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bethjunebug said...

You can do this. Cancer doesn't have to win. With the positive attitude, you will get well. Promise!! I will keep you in my prayers.
God Bless,
Liz
http://journals.aol.com/bethjunebug/Bethjunebug

dwhee70041 said...

Kim, Keep smiling!  David

lindaggeorge said...

Just keeping thinking about next summer with your new, probably curly golden locks, perky boobs and flat tummy. It'll be here before you know it.

Linda x.

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davethesod said...

Hi there, fellow nominee...

I'd just like to congratulate you on becoming a nominee for the, '2006 Vivi Awards' and wish you the very best of luck on voting day. I know how excited you must be, because I too was voted for, in the 'Best Video Blog' catagory.

If you want to see exactly how excited I was, check out my video response here:

http://journals.aol.co.uk/davethesod/mish-mash/entries/677

As my blog is less than one month old and it doesn't have very many viewers yet, perhaps you could help me out and increase my chances in the 'Best Video Blog' catagory come voting day, by sharing the link to my blog with all of your friends, but only if you enjoy it, of course. If you could do that for me, I'd be ever so grateful.

Here it is...

http://journals.aol.co.uk/davethesod/mish-mash/

Once again, all the best and good luck with the votes on, 2nd November...

pharmolo said...

Your attitude is great in the face of adversity, keep it going :-)

lindapaterson177 said...

Just pure magic!
bella xx
http://journals.aol.co.uk/lindapaterson177/IstartedofthislifewithnothingIst/

gandsbrock said...

A nice smile it is.  I'm glad you've got it back.  I bet it feels good too.

ajquinn354 said...

Kim, your words, your feelings and your determination will see you through anything and that anything will be success with your health.  You have such a good attitude in each step you take.  Your beauty is not just in your heart, but in your determination.  So proud of you for the great outlook you have and sense of humor.   Bless you....Arlene

chevyz71gurl74 said...

Your husband sounds soooo very sweet!!!
Ahhhh, braless wouldn't that be wonderful...
Have a great weekend Kim =)
Hugss ~Terri~

inafrnz247 said...

So happy to hear that your smile has returned and that you have a such a loving husband that not only notices, but tells you so!  It means so much to hear it, I'm sure!  Hugs, Michelle

evanmyangel88 said...

Kimbeleigh, I just want to let you know I admire you for your strength and humor in your fight against b.c. I have just been diagnosed with Inflammatory breast cancer and you have inspired me to start my own journal. I am not much of a writer but I think it will help to put in words my hopes and fears and trials and triumphs. Keep up the good work and keep inspiring! Blessings, Barbara

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cneinhorn said...

under construction, that is great! and look out everyone, the new improved version is gonna knock your socks off! although, you are perfect just the way you are too.    hey, i love your new sidebar photo, you do have your smile back.  

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rebuketheworld said...

Yah know my biggest hope in love is to be understood...never had that...I think its lovely that he sees the little things...how wonderful...we need that in trials...And, yes I chuckled with the "under construction" comment...Your sense of humor is hysterical....How lucky that your family gets to be surrounded by someone who turns a heavy moment into a chuckle...~Raven

mzgoochi said...

wish i could give you a real hug. ((((You))))) hang in there kim.

God Bless ya!

tendernoggle said...

God bless you sugar...
love ya,
carlene

hadonfield78 said...

Dont forget about Chicago Style Hotdogs.......
Ive had them here before, but they are not the same.
The best ones are downtown Chicago....
OMG, its a meal by itself...

brandyp0509 said...

It's not you outward appearance that makes you beautiful it's that spirit and spunk you have!  That is a great wish! LOL.  Brandy

ann7inflorida said...

It hasn't taken what makes you a woman. You have a soul, a heart and an unwavering strength... like none I have ever seen before. You are still 100% woman.... and then some.

pprrrr39 said...

Love your positiveness ......certainly brings a smile to my face

Stay Strong
hugs
Jayne

psychfun said...

Girl we are all Under Construction if you think about it! HA! Boy could I do more with this but I'll stop myself before I get too goofy.

Now, I just tried Domino's crunchy thin pizza recently & I loved that crust. I usually like Giorodano's stuffed pizza or Chicago Dough's but this was great when you don't want to be stuffed yourself & want something crunchy. mmmm I'm getting hungry.